Wednesday, November 16, 2011

The Tablet

aIal think Imualaikum

in the name of Allah the Most Gracious The Most Merciful

This is my first time blogging with Samsung Galaxy Tab. To be honest, it has been a great experience. The interface is smooth, very fluid and the colours are fantastic.

I thank first and foremost to Allah for granting me 28 years of life so far. I turned 28 last week, and to have been given this present was really unprecedented. Special thanks to Aisyah Amalia.

Time moves so fast that in less than 6 weeks, the most waited event of the year will take place. Preparation-wise, there are heaps that yet to be solved. Being far away from family, who has been helpful, doesn't help the course at all.

I think I will stop writing as for now.

Take care readers. Till next time

Saturday, October 29, 2011

The Reckoning


In the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Merciful

I'm pretty confident many have heard of Sir Elton John's first ever( and likely his last) in Malaysia. His ads can be seen in many daily newspapers.

That is normal. What is abnormal is Pas Youth seems to be making headlines as well. The way they work is the moment an event is announced, they will be among the first to protest. They seem to excel very well here. Excel in protesting, of course.

Many are disappointed with the current leadership of current Pas youth. Some may disagree, but that's alright.

I don't mean to intervene in their work, but in my opinion, the focus should be turned on to improving the Muslims. Protesting here and there does not make Islam more attractive. What they need to do is to constantly provide alternative entertainment to the youth. Make them attracted to you.

Let the non Muslims do whatever they want. They are entitled to it. We must now focus on strengthening the faith of Muslims. Come whatever may, our resilient will be as strong as ever.

PAS Youth really needs to improve.

till next time.



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

It is 1 am to be precise. I finished my locum at 12 midnight, and got into talking with friends in ward for some time before finally reaching home.

So what is new in life?

I reckon I still have issues to this so called group 'Himpun'. In my opinion, they have been misled in their objectives. I won't go into details in this entry, because you know, it's 1 am.

To those who are expecting my presence in the next Raya Haji, it is sad to announce that I won't be making my way back home. I really can't. The weekend after I have a course to attend in Universiti Malaya, which coincides with my birthday too, so I had to decide what is best for all.

Of late, I have had difficulty in falling asleep. It runs in the family, unfortunately. It really stresses the hell out of you everytime you wake up feeling tired. It is a test from Allah to test if patience is really one of your virtues. Do I own one? Yes, you, tell me.

Apart from those above, I have less than 8 weeks before I finally tie the know with the special one. Kind of my feelings really. You feel scared moving into another stage of life, but you can't deny the excitement too. My counterpart says she feels lucky not to be a man, because of the responsibilities and all.

Lol! Gibberish eh?

till next time,

Wednesday, October 26, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

It is 12 midnight, and I can't seem to settle down on my bed. My brain is preoccupied with things that I have no answers to its respective questions.

In between 2 people with obvious differences in character and personality, how do you find compatibility between them? You handle things your way, and so does she. They may not suit your way, and vice versa.

Occasionally a fight erupts between these couples. A fight can be a simple and trivial one. It the big one that makes you lose your sleep. A lot of theories invented including one that asks you to keep it low until the mood of your counterpart cools down.

Really it is down to the differences that determine the way you handle a fight.

You may wonder why am I writing on this.

I don't have the answer.

till next time,

Monday, October 24, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

My application for a transfer to my beloved hometown was approved last week. I was informed through a telephone call, and there is no black and white yet at the moment.

Should the letter be here by anytime soon, I will leave this place with mixed feeling. It has been a memorable 2 and a half years. Kulim was already known as Kulim Hi Tech way before I knew I would be transferred here. Back then Kulim was a far quieter place compared to now.

Everytime I am here I feel content with life. All the basic necessities are easy to find here. There is no traffic jam, and the spirit of neighbourhood is well felt. People can recognise me and at times, honestly I have to pretend that I know who they are. You hardly get people pretending you are not there, when you actually are.

But whenever I am back home, it is always home sweet home.

So I have had a few homes now.

I need to settle down I reckon.

till next time,

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Himpun - My Side


Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Mengasihani

Tujuan saya menulis adalah untuk menyuarakan pendapat mengenai 'HIMPUN'. Secara kasarnya, ia merupakan perhimpunan yang dianjurkan oleh pertubuhan bukan kerajaan (NGOs) dengan objektif-objektif tertentu.

Secara umumnya, penganjur dan penyokong adalah golongan orang yang berilmu.

Di samping menyedari ancaman pendakwah agama lain yang semakin jelas, satu hakikat yang kurang disedari sebenarnya masyarakat Melayu adalah jahil terhadap agama Islam itu sendiri. Mata pelajaran agama pun ramai yang tak lulus, dan bukanlah satu perkara yang mengejutkan bila kita mendengar belia berumur 25 tahun tidak tahu membaca al-Fatihah.

Saya tidak menentang pendekatan mubaligh agama lain, kerana itu memang tanggungjawab yang dipikul oleh mereka.

Jika saudara pernah mengikuti tulisan saya sebelum ini, saya juga antara orang yang tidak bersetuju dengan kempen boikot Israel.


Saya melihat perjuangan pada zaman dahulu, Rasulullah tidak membuat demonstrasi atau mengajak rakyat berkumpul untuk menyuarakan bantahan terhadap orang yang menentang Islam. Sebaliknya apa yang dilakukan ialah penerapan berterusan akidah orang Islam.

Apa yang harus ditekankan ialah suara bersepadu untuk mengukuhkan akidah umat Islam.

Jika kita berkeras hendak memprotes golongan Kristian sebagai contoh, bagaimana pula jika golongan bukan Muslim juga berkeras untuk membantah pengislaman kaum-kaum bukan Melayu. Jika kehendak kedua-dua pihak dituruti, maka kita akan menemui jalan buntu, di mana hanya Melayu akan menjadi Muslim dan golongan bukan Melayu terus dengan agama mereka.

91. Allah sekali-kali tidak mempunyai anak, dan sekali-kali tidak ada tuhan (yang lain) beserta-Nya, kalau ada tuhan beserta-Nya, masing-masing tuhan itu akan membawa makhluk yang diciptakannya, dan sebagian dari tuhan-tuhan itu akan mengalahkan sebagian yang lain. Maha Suci Allah dari apa yang mereka sifatkan itu,

92. Yang mengetahui semua yang ghaib[1019] dan semua yang nampak, maka Maha Tinggilah Dia dari apa yang mereka persekutukan. Al-Mu'minun ayat 91-92

Golongan-golongan agama juga agak konservatif, dan ramai pula yang senyap bila golongan-golongan berilmu dinafikan mengajar di Selangor dengan alasan tiada tauliah. Tujuan pengajian ialah untuk memantapkan kefahaman tentang Islam.

Tapi yang menariknya, apa yang ditumpukan ialah ilmuan agama lain dilarang untuk mendekati umat Islam.

Golongan pengajar Islam yang hendak mendekati orang Islam pula dilarang. Ironis, dan di manakah keutamaannya?

Saya pernah menulis beberapa artikel yang sedikit sebanyak ada kaitan dengan topik yang saya bincangkan di atas.

Klik di pautan(link) di atas.

till next time,

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Beautiful Weekend


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

In less than 3 days, one of the most important weekends in the history of mankind will take place. It is a weekend that almost everybody really looks forward to.

First of all, I need to be at Malacca this Friday. Lots of matters need to be sorted out, for the important upcoming once-in-a-lifetime event soon.

Secondly, Liverpool to play Man United on Saturday. Fingers crossed but I still have hopes that the victory will belong to us. Judging by the current form, Man Utd are the clear favourites.

Thirdly, the celebration of 35th wedding anniversary of my parents'. I feel delighted for them. I envy them really. Modern society has resulted chaos to many couples, but to weather the storm like what they have achieved, it is not easy. Therefore, Mama and Papa, Happy 35th anniversary! May you be blessed by Allah always.

Following right after this, is the match between the All Blacks and Wallabies. If your hair never stood still after watching this video, I really don't know what to say.

We can plan, and I hope Allah will grant me the chance to enjoy this beautiful weekend.

till next time,

Saturday, October 08, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

So everyone has got their own say on the 2012 Budget presented yesterday in the Parliament. In any budget presented by any respective government of the day, there will be good and bad points.

So whatever that is deemed to be right, nobody should condemn it, just because they are on the opposite party. Vice versa, the ones on the same boat ought to not be a yes man, so that the boss will be pleased with his actions.

I have yet to analyse experts' reviews on this matter, and so many have you too.

So how do you tell whether this a good or a bad one?

One has to compliment the liberalisation of the government sectors. Pay rise, no new tax and this and that, we are thankful to God and the government.

What many find as troubling is the number of one-off packages. Scary. Do we actually have the means to implement this?

Do we always need to give the fish, rather them teaching how to fish?

If this RM500 is finished, are we back to square one, complaining that cost of living is very high? If there was to be another course of war in Iraq, will the people be denied the right to complain the rise is petrol price?

While I am thankful for the goodies, I cannot help but think that this is an Election Budget. My prediction is middle of next year, a couple of months after all of these goodies have been distributed.

Fingers crossed, but I think my prediction could be right.

Till next time lads,

Sunday, October 02, 2011



in the name of Allah theMost Gracious the Most Merciful

In life as a Muslim, you'll be tested from time to time. Your resilience and its outcome are indicators of how strong is your faith towards Allah.

Allah tests His servants in a possible thousand and one ways.

One of them is happiness. Happiness on its own is a test. Many supplicate to Allah in the times when things are not going their way. We tell them to be patience. More often than not, we forget Allah when everything is in good terms.

We turn to Allah when the gift of happiness is taken back.

How ungrateful are we as a human being. When you become a boss to your employees, you want them to love you just like how much you love them. Have we done justice to ourselves now?

I'd love to write more, but I can't.

till next time,

Friday, September 30, 2011

Gambar Tunang


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Alright! This time, as promised before, I will put up some photos from the event that took place last weekend.

We took off from Kuala Lumpur at 10am, and reached Bukit Rambai at 12. The photos will tell you everything. Enjoy!

Pic 1
Pic 2
Pic 3
Pic 4
Pic 5

till next time,

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Messed up


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Occasionally this feeling of uneasiness comes uninvited. You will be restless for no reason, and you can't seem to be able to find the reason why.

Something is troubling me inside, and please, somebody tell me why.

As you get older, more responsibilities are placed upon your shoulders. These do not only come with great power, but also with heaps of sacrifices.

Whether you like it or not, you hardly are given any choices. So, take it as it is, and complain as much as you like, but please get on with life. Those days of leading a free life might not be yours to even think about it anymore.

Yes, I promised you pictures. I will InsyaAllah tomorrow. I hardly even have time for me at home, let alone for others.

till next time,

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Malaysian first


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I don't know how to start this time. Usually I have a topic in mind, that I feel like voicing out. This time tonight, I have the urge to write. For the past 30 minutes, I have been thinking that I want to write tonight. The issue, well, none.

Of late, there has been no major events happening to me. I am still an avid follower of our national politics, I remain a big fan of Liverpool and I want to keep on improving as a Muslim and a Malay.

There is one movie that really caught my attention. Approaching 28 years of my life as a Malaysian, I haven't really felt that all Malaysians can identify themselves as a Malaysian first, and a Malay second. I have to admit that I am really really really impressed with Namewee's efforts in Nasi Lemak 2.0.

You can ask my friends, I am very close to my Chinese neighbours. I have lived under one roof with Chinese, Indians and Sabahan. I enjoy making friends with them. I can assure you that not many have had that experience, let alone having the will to try that.

So kudos to Namewee. Hats off to you my fellow Malaysian.

I hate racism. Let's kick racism out of our lives.

There will be a big event happening this Saturday. Will keep you updated for sure. Hopefully there will pics uploaded here.

till next time. Cheers


Sunday, September 18, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I feel restless. I am now stuck in a clinic, locuming, of course.

Yet, I feel 'called' to write today.

I had a busy call last night. I have come to realize that I tend to lose patience easily when test comes forth to me. For the past 30 months, my calls have always been a relatively easy one. Relatively is the word.

I have always been the source of envy for many colleagues. I am speaking in terms of how busy will I get in every on call session. 3-4 hours of sleep is the minimum I will get in these nights. Comparatively, many of my colleagues will barely have 1 hour per night.

Of late, the trend has changed.

Patience is a virtue that if one succeeds to grab on hold to, invariably will lead you to a greater heights. I don't know if I am getting less patience lately, or I do actually have a low threshold.

Making things worse, I am not a good sleeper.

I feel slightly relieved. It is always good to vomit out your stressful thoughts isn't it?

till next time,

Thursday, September 15, 2011

Time and tide


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Life as a doctor is a really an unpredictable one. It is worse especially if you are bonded to the government for a certain period of time. In my case, it is a 10 year contract. 8 1/2 more to go.

Say for example, my department is blessed with a good number of medical officers. I have only 5 on calls for the this month. Next month there will be a couple leaving the department, therefore we are all back to square one.

With regards to me, I have submitted my transfer request. I've requested Kuala Lumpur and Selangor. I am neither Torres nor Meireles who decided at the 11th hour to turn their back on their old club, who has given them so much.

lol! Jokes aside, it is attributed to the fact that it is my turn to take care of my parents. I have been away for far too long. Long story short, I feel homecoming is so good. No, I have not received my confirmation letter yet. It is this feeling that, frequent traveling Kulim-KL-Kulim makes you miss home more and more. It never subsides really.

Wish me luck!

till next time,

Monday, September 05, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

It's 12 midnight, and I should have long been dreaming on my bed.

It is funny that you can develop affection towards somebody in a short space of time. Life is unpredictable, it has always been like that. Japan, amongst the best in technology, lost billions of dollars with hundreds of life in the recent tsunami.

You always hope that whatever is given to you is the best for you. I reckon everybody hates it that when they think they have got everything, in a blink of an eye, they are gone.

Nothing lasts forever, but the hatred towards the saying never ceases. All good things will end one day, and so do the bad ones.

One thing that we should always keep in mind is the trust to Allah. He knows best.

till next time,

Sunday, September 04, 2011

Cloud 9


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I've been wanting to write for the past few days, honestly. However, this holiday is about non stop traveling for me.

Imagine this, Kulim to Kl the day before raya, next KL to Johor Bahru on the first day. Third day of Raya, JB to KL, and KL-Melaka-KL the day after. I had a break on the 5th, and I safely arrived at Kulim at 5pm(1 hour ago).

I feel physically tired.

Nevertheless, it was a fruitful tired. I am over the moon again. I shall keep it low, at least for now.

I got to see my family, and a couple of friends.

Not to forget the duit raya, it is by far the biggest I've ever received. Shortly afterwards, 90% had to spend for some important reasons(biggest portion for hutang!).

Now that I am back in Kulim, I will kick start my financial saving drive today. Yes today. I reached Kulim at 4.50pm, and at 6.26pm, I have seen close to 10 patients in clinic.

I have got to start working hard again.

till next time,

Sunday, August 21, 2011

The Reason


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I remember once the commentator was saying 'just when you think you've seen everything', during the Champs League final in 2005.

Life is unpredictable, is it not? One moment you feel that you are on top of the world, and next with no warning you can hit rock bottom.

I feel grateful for what He has given me. Everything that happens has its reasons, and virtues of course.

Now it is Day 21 of Ramadhan, and it goes without saying that this holy month will finally leave us, regardless of what we feel.

At the end of the day, you will roughly sort of know if you have succeeded, or not. The deeds recorded will be kept up there, and only will be judged at Hereafter.

Grant me the strength to maximise the benefits, ya Allah.

till next time,

Wednesday, August 17, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I was going to start packing up for tomorrow's homecoming journey. Out of nothing, I suddenly feel the urge to write.

It all occurred in August 15th, 2 days ago. A patient with Chronic Rheumatic Heart Disease was admitted for transportation purpose for his follow up at IJN (National Heart Institute). As I was seeing him, I felt all the troubles in the world had disappeared.

He's a young boy, less than 12 as far as I can remember. His mother came to see me a couple of weeks ago, asking to sign his welfare application form. I asked the mother 'are you both well prepared for tomorrow?' and 'how much did they ask you to pay during your last visit?' .

The answer was RM50. I'm pretty confident to the many of you will have no qualms paying that. Deep inside I knew RM50 means the world to them.

They returned to Kulim last night. To my surprise, they were asked to now pay RM350. I suppose you can tell how much would they be able to pay? I assumed they had brought RM50 again, but how much do you know about them right? They could only afford RM30, and kudos to IJN for treating them well. Allah knows your virtues and you will insyaAllah be rewarded for your good deeds.

This event makes me think. We will achieve our 54th Independent Day since 1957. Moving towards 2020 and lauding your near 0 poverty means nothing. I repeat, nothing. How responsible are our leaders?

Both PR and BN, please wake up. Your hatred towards each other does not benefit the rakyat at all. Until today, I do not know what will this boy's family have for their iftar and the coming Eid.

I strongly hope PPZ will be more generous in distributing their zakat collection.

I thank Allah for sending me to Kulim. There are still a lot more to learn.

till next time,

Friday, August 12, 2011

Pemuda lesu


Dengan nama Allah Maha Pemurah Maha Mengasihani

Sedar tak sedar, dah masuk hari ke-12 dah hari ni. Ada yang kata cepat, ada yang kata lambat. Tak kisahla bab tu kan.... sehari tetap ada 24 jam macam mana pun.

Kebelakangan ini banyak isu yang mengganggu kita. Yang paling jelas pada mata saya ialah isu JAIS.

Saya mulakan dengan khutbah Jumaat hari ni. Mungkin saya yang terlalu letih sebab semalam tidur lewat sebab teringin sahur Nasi Kandar Beratur di Penang. Tapi bukan sekali, yang kita keluar dari masjid tanpa ingat apa isi kandungan khutbah yang kita dengar tak sampai 20 minit lepas.

Institusi Islam yang diberi kuasa terlalu pasif dan lesu. Tanpa menafikan jasa yang telah ditaburkan, kita lihat mereka agak perlahan dalam menangani isu-isu semasa. Khutbah jumaat hanya sekadar untuk dibaca oleh para khatib.

Saya masih ingat ketika di tingkatan 5 di MRSM Pengkalan Chepa. Saya kebetulan di belakang Tuan Guru Nik Aziz yang sehingga sekarang kelihatan tidak berapa sihat fizikalnya. Yang mengagumkan, Tuan Guru naik ke mimbar dan terus memberi peringatan tanpa melihat kepada teks. Terasa lain sangat dengan khutbah Jumaat sekarang, yang tak ubah macam memberi bantal kepada orang-orang yang mengantuk.

Institusi-institusi ini juga agak pasif dalam sentiasa mengukuhkan akidah umat. Terlalu pasif dalam tindakan yang diputuskan.

Oleh sebab itu, ramai yang riuh suara bila serbuan JAIS terhadap gereja. Pertama sekali untuk saya, saya tidak pernah mendengar hujah Hassan Ali, Jais dan pihak gereja dalam isu ini. Sukar untuk saya memberi komen yang adil tanpa hujah kedua-dua pihak.

Akan tetapi, berbeza sungguh zaman ini sikapnya. Seperti lemah kita ini yang jika kita diberi kitab Bible Melayu atau masuk gereja, kita akan jadi rosak akidah.

Saya selalu suka pendekatan yang lain daripada kebanyakan kawan saya. Saya suka mengambil pendekatan penambahbaikan kualiti diri daripada melemahkan kekuatan lawan. Saya sendiri walaupun menyokong kempen boikot Israel, saya lebih suka membeli barang buatan Muslim. Ini kerana dengan kekuatan sendiri yang lebih kuat, kita secara tidak langsung memberi kita booster untuk melawan pihak lawan.

Juga sama dengan pihak Pemuda Pas Pusat, yang agak pasif dan reaktif. Mereka hanya menunggu 'event' untuk datang dan tiba, kemudian akan turun membantah. Konsert tu dan konsert ini, tugas mereka hendak membantah.

Adakah jauh lebih baik jika mereka mengambil pendekatan yang aktif. Saya suka melihat contoh yang ditunjukkan YB KJ yang turun ke serata Malaysia untuk BN Youth Job Fair. Bukan nak suruh tiru, tetapi aktif jauh lagi dari pasif. Ada eloknya mereka sediakan pertandingan sukan, cari peluang kerja, promosi gaya hidup sihat dan lain-lain. Sekurang-kurangnya nampak juga alternatif untuk orang muda berhibur dengan cara lain.

Pada mata kasar rakyat, Pemuda Pas ni sangat pasif dan kerja hanya ingin bantah konsert yang datang di Malaysia.

Mereka sepatutnya mengemudi pemuda.

Saya tahu, saya bukan orang terbaik untuk komen. Tapi sebagai rakyat, saya ingin melihat PAS berdiri tinggi di mata rakyat.

till next time,

Friday, August 05, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

It's one of those days for me, that you complain so much over 1 thing that you cannot get. You have all the reasons in the world to express your gratitude, but you prefer to sit down and do nothing.

It is exactly the same that when you make 1 and only mistake, that people forgets all the good things you have done. They will only talk about nothing but the mistake that you did.

That is just how life is.

I know this attitude is unforgivable. More over, when God has given you so much, yet you have very little will to be thankful.

I will never stop learning. I shouldn't eh?

till next time,

Saturday, July 30, 2011

48 hours


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I am bored to the max here in clinic.

I have 5 more hours to go, and to be honest, I really do not know what am I doing this for?

I work hard and I barely have the time to enjoy this money. I hardly even have the time to have adequate rest.

I have decided that this coming Ramadhan is the time for me to focus on prayers and good deeds. On and off there will be a few slots to be filled in, but rest assured, maximum is nothing more than 5 slots outside.

I need to get a life this time.

How do you define a life anyway?

till next time,

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Harimau Malaya


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

The whole of Malaysia is buzzing like mad over tonight's match.

I can't help it, all this while I have dreamed of Malaysia standing on top of the world.

Aragorn has once said "there is still hope".

A tweet from YB Khairy Jamaluddin, 'let this be the night where we ask where were you when we slayed the Lions?

Goosebumps, honestly.

till next time,

Tuesday, July 26, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

It's been some time eh?

I am sorry. Life's not as organized lately, as I hoped for. So many things have happened.

Forget all this worldly matters. The Holy month of Ramadhan is closer than we think. In less than 5 days, we will have to wake up in early morning for sahur, going up to work with 13 hour spell of empty stomach and prayers at night.

Everybody seems to be excited.

Alhamdulillah, I have been able to endure the previous years. Honestly, you can tell whether your fasting has actually achieved everything but success.

I don't want to go on 30 days of fasting, and the end result remains the same old Azri. Many deem this as a school, where you give your best shot to come out as a successful graduate.

I remember as a student, in New Zealand, it was close to winter and the weather never really helped, really. You could never enjoy your friendship more than what we had here. It was never about race. Malaysians, Arabs, Indians and all Muslims around the world sat down together, waiting for the time to break fast.

I treasure those memories. Sometimes you wish you could turn back time and enjoy those moments again.

Some photos will be up in the next few days.


Monday, July 04, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Loads have been said about Bersih 2.0.

In my humble opinion, the current government leaders have displayed a sheer arrogance and abuse of power.

You can have your say, and so can I.

till next time,

Wednesday, June 29, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

to be honest, I occasionally feel lonely..........

La Tahzan, sesungguhnya Allah bersama kita.

till next time,

Saturday, June 25, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Sometimes guilty strikes you when you commit a sin. Let alone if somebody commits a sin as a result of a sin that you have done?

It is like a domino effect, where one event leads to another, and it is over and irreversible, right before you know it.

I felt bad.

There needs to be an end to this problem.

Suffering is not an option this time. I need to break away from the current me, and another new Azri. A soul that commits himself to the One.

Only you Allah can guide me to the right path. Forgive me for all the sins I have committed, knowingly or unknowingly.

till next time,

Sunday, June 19, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Have you ever seen somebody suffering as a result of what you have inflicted? To be honest, I have, and it was never my intention.I never intended,and something I never wanted.

To this person, I pray that 1 day will be back on your feet, face the world as strong as it was before. I am sorry that you are not getting the support that you ought to get. I am still right behind you, but eventually it will be down to you to believe that you can get up again.

You know my position very well.

Perhaps whatever has happened is a blessing in disguise. We are weak after all. We can plan, and execute it to the max as we can. That is as far as your body can go. The final outcome will be at His courtesy. He knows what is best for us.

I wish you all the best in the future. It was a sweet 1 1/2 years for me, it really really was.

I can't promise what will happen in the future, but what is certain, I only want the best for us.

hope this soothes your heart, albeit temporarily

till the day we meet again,
adios my dear friend...........


Wednesday, June 15, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Over the past few days, I feel more calm, settled.

I don't know what has made me feel that. To a certain extent, I can confidently attribute this to the kulliyah by Dr Asri.

I think I've made up my mind. What has happened has happened. Of course, there are regrets. I suppose that is part and parcel of life. No matter how hard you try sometimes, the happy ending may be far off from what you have dreamed off.

Hence, you may as well swallow the pill, though it is bitter. Not everything that is bitter is bad.

I once, was the first to get cramps in the expedition to conquer Gunung Tahan. The group consisted of 8 boys and 8 girls. It was embarrassing to have had that, but I was in the smaller group that reached the summit eventually.

Man of the moment, Sham Kamikaze

I am now back on 2 feet and putting a smile back .

till next time,

Monday, June 13, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

So it has been a week since the incident occurred.

What do I do now? I've lost hope to be honest. On my side, albeit difficult, I am trying my best so that I can move on.

Really, it has been proven not easy more often than not.

The more you think about it, the more mess you will make.

A quick fix of hope is what I really needed now. Really...

till next time,

Saturday, June 11, 2011

I need a break


In the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

It's a beautiful Saturday. It is the last day of the weekend in Kedah. Weekend is defined as Friday and Saturday here.

The weather is stunning, cool and breezy after a late night rain. It reminds me of New Zealand somehow. Funny enough, I missed Malaysia like crazy during my stint there. I tried to get a bit of Malaysia in everything I do. I played Malay songs everyday, ate Malaysian food and many more.

Where are you now, you might ask? Well, since I became a doctor, I have hardly been at home. If I don't go out, I'll be away doing extra work, i.e. locum. 2 things, firstly extra money, and secondly to improve my clinical knowledge.

I am not the type that likes to spend hours in front of my television set. Exception is for football matches and good movies.

In the next few months to come, I look forward to having a long deserved break. I haven't decided where to go, but I need a bit of fresh air. So many ups and downs recently, hence the reason why.

I believe this is a test from Allah. God willing, I will emerge stronger.

till next time,

p/s I'll be on call tomorrow.

Friday, June 10, 2011

Rise and Fall


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Hello there, my followers!

Yeah, it has been a long short hiatus here. I apologise for that, it's nothing short than a turbulance to describe the past few weeks.

Well, I am not in the best state of mind to reveal anything yet. I guess I need some time for recovery, both mentally and physically.

I just want to say that I would like to be active here again, sharing my thoughts on anything and everything I like.

I really miss that part of my life, where I am critical in my ideas and opinions, and I get replies questioning my thoughts.

There's a saying "What does not kill you will only make you stronger". To be honest, I am not into this, but I will learn to be back on my feet again. I know I will.

Life is like this, you win some and you lose some.

Nobody likes to lose. Proven many times, winning or losing is not an option.

You just have to get on with that.

till next time,

Friday, April 29, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I feel emotionally disturbed. This wave of discontent is troubling me.

Have you ever had a thing that you badly wanted, it was never taken away, but the delivery was delayed? Delayed not in a matter of minutes or hours, but in a bigger scale.

I wouldn't mind if I can guarantee I still have 40 years ahead of me.

I keep telling myself, things happen for a reason. I had a break up, and was later substituted with a better one. That is an example of course.

I feel like picking up a fight. No, that is not a wise move.It won't make things better, for sure.

"Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau hukum kami jika kami lupa atau melakukan kesalahan. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau bebani kami dengan beban yang berat sebagaimana Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang sebelum kami. Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang tidak sanggup kami memikulnya. Maafkanlah kami, ampunilah kami, dan rahmatilah kami. Engkaulah pelindung kami, maka tolonglah kami menghadapi orang-orang kafir."

Allah will never test you in things you can never resolve. I believe in Him. Patience is the key now. Patience my love, patience(Gollum's style).

I believe in Him.

till next time,

Wednesday, April 27, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

It's really strange to be mentioning this, but jealousy has preoccupied my mind for the past 2 days. I seem not to be able to get rid of this one thought.

I suppose not to go into details in the matter above is a smart move.

Preaching to people that 'you don't always get what you want' is the easiest thing to do. We've been taught that there's always a reason for everything that happens. Allah never fails to listen to us. He never rejects our requests. He is fair, he knows when to grant the request and when to substitute it with something better.

Having that in mind, I guess patience is the key.

Patience my love, patience- Gollum.

In the meantime, I know the key to success is to work hard, and work smart. Work harder, harder and harder.

I hope at the same time I will strive harder to become a better Muslim.

till next time,

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

1 aim


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Sometimes when it is your day, a flight of ideas will come through your mind, without any invitation.

Today, I am writing with only 1 aim. That is to write an entry.


More to come, InsyaAllah.

till next time,

Sunday, April 17, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I know this page is lacking in update for almost a week, or slightly more. I've been slightly busy though. You know that you can't always win. Also important to note that you will always lose something in every victory.

Life as a medical officer is not easy. Every post on call I'll feel extremely exhausted, without fail. No matter how much sleep do I get through the night, the next day surely makes me I need a day off to completely recover.

Anyways, I have been making my life busy by working extra time in private clinics. I'm earning some extra money, and I guess it is only fair that I use a large chunk of that money for myself. Therefore folks, enjoy this!

I have returned to the right path. I was with Htc previously, before switching to Nokia. The time is right, couldn't be any better somehow.

I pledged my loyalty to Samsung 10 years ago. I reckon there is always turning back in this matter.

I'll be at Penang for the next 2 days. This time it is for asthma seminar. Quite looking forward to it really. God willing, I will come back with some improvised knowledge, and photos!!!

till next time

Thursday, April 07, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Weekend has started for me. Well it is Friday, and this is Kedah. Tomorrow is Saturday, and Sunday I am back to normal working day. Sigh..

Personally, I would prefer to have a standardized system throughout the whole country. It would be easier to coordinate activities with our beloved families.

I still find it hard to fathom the reasons given. It doesn't seem right.

9. Hai orang-orang beriman, apabila diseru untuk menunaikan shalat Jum'at, maka bersegeralah kamu kepada mengingat Allah dan tinggalkanlah jual beli[1475]. Yang demikian itu lebih baik bagimu jika kamu mengetahui.

10. Apabila telah ditunaikan shalat, maka bertebaranlah kamu di muka bumi; dan carilah karunia Allah dan ingatlah Allah banyak-banyak supaya kamu beruntung.

Surah Jumaah

People will go home post prayer to sleep. It doesn't match the character that our holy Quran describes.

Even the Westerners work hard on Friday. Weekend starts on Friday night. Whereas here in Malaysia, Friday is your first day of weekend.

What progression could you achieve when you continue with this? Less transaction is made on Friday, and Sunday when it opens, occasionally you have to wait till Monday to get all the paper works done. We are well left behind, my dear brothers and sisters.

11. Dan apabila mereka melihat perniagaan atau permainan, mereka bubar untuk menuju kepadanya dan mereka tinggalkan kamu sedang berdiri (berkhotbah). Katakanlah: "Apa yang di sisi Allah lebih baik daripada permainan dan perniagaan", dan Allah Sebaik-baik Pemberi rezki. (surah jumaah)

Another thing is, it is not to have your lunch or cendol during the sermon.

I hope this will change. Unfortunately I can foresee it happen anytime soon.

till next time,

Tuesday, April 05, 2011

Disgusting UMNO


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I think we Malaysians have seen the dirtiest that we could ever imagine in our politics. The video that is said to have involved Anwar Ibrahim has been disseminated all over the country. What is more disgusting, Utusan and Kosmo, have cut and pasted the stilled images from the clip and made it public, for the youngster to the old folks to read.

I don't know if I will ever forgive Utusan. I truly don't know where are the so called 40 ulama who joined UMNO with the intention to spread the good image of Islam. I feel disgusted looking at UMNO. I feel disgusted that they call themselves Malay Muslim when the only thing that they do is slandering.

If it is really Anwar, bring him to court.

I will never vote for UMNO, for as long as blood is pumping through my veins. Call me fanatic, but I really cannot tolerate this.

To the scholars in UMNO, I have never lost so much respect as I have at you. I mean it.

till next time,

Sunday, April 03, 2011

1st step forward


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I had my first ever on call as a medical officer. For your information, medical officer is a step above of House Officer, or houseman as they call it in Malaysia. Medical officer is a fully registered doctor, after completing 2 years as a medical graduate.

It was a super exhausting call. I was pretty much non stop running from 8 am till midnight. The climax when I received a call asking for my presence in a premature 31 week pregnancy in labour.

Saving his life alone took almost 3 hours.

I went home the next day at 10, and was absolutely flattened out till 2 pm.

It was a good learning experience nonetheless.

till next time,

Friday, April 01, 2011

Hidden Agenda


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Occasionally people breach the trust given to them.

The temptation sometimes is so good that you feel like abandoning your possessions.

Being me, the last thing I want to do in this world is to commit a treason. As bitter as it tastes, I suppose you have to swallow it. It doesn't necessarily be the best for you.

Allah knows best

216. Diwajibkan atas kamu berperang, padahal berperang itu adalah sesuatu yang kamu benci. Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.

Patience is the key. At the end of the day, we are only human beings. Nobody knows the future right?

till next time,

Wednesday, March 30, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

It touches your heart somehow when somebody recognises you and you don't feel the same way. For instance, today I was about to pay for 3 doughnuts, I asked 'Berapa ni pakcik'?. He replied back 'Seringgit je doktor'.

That was the not the first time. Deep inside in your heart, you wonder 'who is this person again?'.

I suppose that is the way of life that our old folks used to have. These days it is known as 'please, mind your own business'. Those days, they know each and everyone of the villagers. They care, and are kind to each other.

Kulim, though having a steadily increasing population, currently 300 000, is not really a big town. Well, that is obvious I guess. The town is nothing more than just a small 'pekan'. Hence, the old values and the lifestyle.

Me and YB Gobalakrishnan(Padang Serai MP)

To be honest, I really don't know what the future holds for me. Allah knows where will I be in the next 5 years. Maybe in Kulim, maybe in Kuching or perhaps Kuantan. Should I get sent to these places, Kulim will be fondly remembered. A place full with good memories...

till next time,

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

The Wedding


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Today I had the discuss with my friend regarding wedding, as in what is ideal and fits our culture.

I think we have long blindly followed the custom without questioning it. We have got ourselves into a expensive and tedious affair.

In Malaysia alone, we have Utara, Kelantan, Terengganu and Melaka Malays.The list goes on and on. What fascinates me is that between these small states, the custom varies significantly.

As far as I can understand, you can expect your wallet to thin faster should your partner come from Northern states, in term of spending for the wedding.

I am not a die hard fan of this you see.

Moreover when you see that most Northern Malays are not wealthy in general.

There are many things that you find it difficult to fathom throughout our lives. Some of them, we have just to swallow it in, despite its bitter taste.

till next time,

p/s would love to exchange ideas with you readers.

Saturday, March 26, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

As you are already aware of, weekend in Kedah is defined by Friday and Saturday. That is not ideal of course. I would rather have 1 standardized system for everybody, and I am pretty sure many will agree.

Anyway, not all weekends are meant to be wasted. Right now, I am stuck in Permatang Pauh doing locum. Do you know Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim is from this area? Anwar, come out and show yourself! They have come to see you!!

This whole thing will finish by evening.

Many have opted to do locum to earn extra income. With the amount we are getting, it is sufficient to lead a just comfortable lifestyle. Well, not really, if you work and live in big cities.

For me, the moment we receive our salary, almost half of it will be gone by 1 day. Loans here and there, and bills too.

Imagine if you are 28 and you have a wife and 3 kids to look after.

I admire the older generations who had successfully raised more than 5 kids. 5 is just a number by the way, as an example. The current generation at this point of time, hardly have more than 4 kids. The reason given is high cost of living.

I share the same sentiment.

That is why I appreciate my (relatively) young age. I work extra hard for the future. Do not speculate, it has nothing to do with future kids(yet). I am just saying, for future property investments, car loans and perhaps, getting married? lol!!

Not to forget, investment for the hereafter is right as important as the world. A balance between these 2 worlds is vital for everybody, especially the Muslims.

till next time,

p/s I love my P1 4G WimaX!!

Friday, March 25, 2011

Ikhlas Tapi Jauh


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

There is not much to blog about today. I'm in a new phase, where as a Medical Officer, you are no longer required to be there 7 days a week. 5 days is of course compulsory, whereas on the weekend you ought to be there if you are on the on call list.

The past 5 days have taught me a lot. Now as a medical officer, you bear the responsibility for whatever you are dealing with. Mistakes are now not tolerable.

I have learned how to save babies. Still the knowledge needs more fixing. I tend to jumble up everything when panicking. A great advantage that I posses is that I get acclimatised quickly, not everyday though. Alhamdulillah..

Let's chill out a bit.

till next time,

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Kematangan Minda


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Without the slightest doubt in my mind, Malaysians can call themselves extremely lucky. Too many events have taken place very very recently, from East to West. Japan are struggling with the impact from tsunami, Libyans are still battling for their lives and many more.

Having said that, being lucky we are, we have made our lives difficult unnecessarily. Started from Sodomy Trial, the endless corruption and the latest sex scandal, said to be involving Dato Seri Anwar Ibrahim.

There are 2 group of characters here, 1stly, the group that will blindly believe their PKR/UMNO leaders are perfect. Secondly, the group that will object everything whatever their counterparts say.

Have we forgotten,

“Wahai orang-orang yang beriman, hendaklah kamu semua sentiasa menjadi orang-orang yang menegakkan keadilan kerana Allah, lagi menerangkan kebenaran dan jangan sekali-kali kebencian kamu terhadap sesuatu kaum itu mendorong kamu kepada tidak melakukan keadilan. Hendaklah kamu berlaku adil (kepada sesiapa jua) kerana sikap adil itu lebih hampir kepada takwa dan bertakwalah kepada Allah, sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui dengan mendalam akan apa yang kamu lakukan. (5:8)”

We ought to analyse all the information that is fed to us.

Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Jika datang kepada kamu seorang fasik membawa sesuatu berita, maka selidikilah (untuk menentukan) kebenarannya, supaya kamu tidak menimpakan sesuatu kaum dengan perkara yang tidak diingini - dengan sebab kejahilan kamu (mengenainya) - sehingga me...njadikan kamu menyesali apa yang kamu telah lakukan.(al-Hujurat:6).

We must also continue researching the best answer to the question we want the most, the truth. The quest is never straightforward, and that is the reason why victory is sweet.

We don't live forever, and there is no guarantee that we will see sunset tomorrow.

Till next time,

Monday, March 21, 2011

Sex Video


In the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

A lot have been said on the sex video scandal, largely unofficially linked to the leader of Pakatan Rakyat.

With the recent unconvincing Sodomy 2 trial, and its chronologically inchronological, one would question to what extent will Malaysians go and assassinate one political career.

Fair enough, it could be DSAI. It could also be anyone.

Have we forgotten this verse,

Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Jika datang kepada kamu seorang fasik membawa sesuatu berita, maka selidikilah (untuk menentukan) kebenarannya, supaya kamu tidak menimpakan sesuatu kaum dengan perkara yang tidak diingini - dengan sebab kejahilan kamu (mengenainya) - sehingga me...njadikan kamu menyesali apa yang kamu telah lakukan.(al-Hujurat:6).

We are not that perfect anyway to constantly expose one's weaknesses.

I can confidently say many of the Malays have done little reading on our political scenes. Mostly will follow whatever their parents support, as simple as that. Yet, when it comes to argument, they will act as if they know everything.

That is what I call....ah, nevermind.

till next time,

Thursday, March 17, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Today is day number 6 of my long awaited holiday. This leave is a bit special in a way, that I get to meet up a lot of friends. Sometimes I feel like capturing all these moments on camera, so that I get to remember these forever. Weird enough, the only camera that I have is my iPod (if that is counted in).

I too was fortunate enough to have the chance to travel to Melaka yesterday. It was a day trip, so now you can still imagine how tired I am now. The last time I stepped foot there was perhaps 6 years ago, attending Zahrul's brother's wedding.

Melaka has changed a lot. It is much more beautiful now, complimented by its outstanding landscape. The food wasn't as good as expected. I can't complain much though, it was only a one time experience.

There is more to tell, unfortunately time is not on my side now.

Luis Suarez - LFC's new Idol

till next time,

Monday, March 14, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I sympathize the Japanese. What they are going through is not easy to imagine. In a blink of an eye, they have lost everything. Everything from shelter, food and other basic needs of life.

Not a few have the heart to make jokes out of it. The likes of Ultraman, Shin Chan and Doraemon have made into the Tweetlines (headlines). For that reason, we have become famous worldwide for the wrong reason.

Berita Harian with their cartoon, and now, our so called First Lady, has gone out of her mind. How unwise more could you be by correlating climate change, green technology and tsunami?

The evidence never lies.

Please, enough making the headlines inappropriately.

till next time,

Saturday, March 12, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I think if, at this time you really have no idea what is taking place in Japan, you are the most ignorant person(s) in the world.

It really needs no further telling, videos or images to imagine the amplitude of the event. I do not subscribe to Al Jazeera, however thanks to P1 Wimax, Al Jazeera online streaming is now a possibility.

I really hope more help will come, hence more lives can be saved. We have had the experience of Acheh, and losing 200 000 of your fellow countrymen is really bitter to take.

For my fellow Malaysians, please, leave politics aside. We may have different ideologies, but we should/MUST stand together as 1 in this. 1 nation, 1 Malaysian, by whatever names you can think of, we must offer the best we could.

If anyone has links to any relief efforts/accounts, do post here. I would like to play a part as well.

It's probably too late already, however better late than never in volunteering yourselves for the good of mankind. With the title Dr in front of my own name, I make it an aim to join Mercy Malaysia in the near future.

I hope to hear more good news when I get up tomorrow, InsyaAllah.

I pray to Allah to grant them safety.

till next time,

p/s this is unnecessary. We have moved on. Many times we'll go "fernando who''. Yet you keep on talking about us. N to run down Atletico Madrid, yeah, very smart of you bro.

Fernando Torres insists he made the right move to leave Liverpool for Chelsea, after admitting 'all he cares about is winning trophies

"I knew I was an idol for the Liverpool fans, but it wasn't the same any more. The institution was in chaos with the sale. There was all this talk of possible projects," he said.

"In many ways it reminded me of Atletico Madrid - a great history, many ideas but without money, it needed time. I don't have that.

"People aren't honest in the world of football. You can't say the truth or be clear with people. It's a business and nobody is anyone's friend."

Missing us, are u?

Wednesday, March 09, 2011

Kicau Kicau


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I strongly recommend all my blog visitors to join me at twitter. Yeah, it makes you slightly anti social, but getting 1st hand information is very handy.

For instance, the Anwar Ibrahim's Sodomy trial can be followed closely through updates from The Malaysian Insider. It makes no sense to compare the info obtained in comparison to Utusan Melayu.

Besides that, I have become the followers of some high profile individuals. To date, I am following DS Najib, Khairy Jamaluddin, DSAI, Azmin, Tony Pua, Kit Siang and not to forget, Juliana Evans (pretty,isn't she?) .

Their constant updates make me glued to my Bold.

Still, with the never ending technology inventions, I still spare some time for futsal, gym, movies and occasionally shopping.

My 3rd genuine Liverpool jersey. All the way from UK bro!

Work wise, though not the best, I have been maintained good standard.

In less than 24 hours, my housemanship is over. Woohooooo!!!

till next time,

p/s I stand strongly by my opinion that Utusan Melayu and Harian Metro are the inhibitors to the intellectual development of the Malays.

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

The Future


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

It was a turbulent weekend for me, a mixture of joyful, nerve wrecking and also frustrating 2 days.

Yesterday was the last working day a House Officer for me. Officially it will all be over on March 10th, however I am taking leave for the last 3 days. It has been a long 2 years for me. Some have said time flies fast, but that does not seem to be the case for me. With so many ups and downs, I think I have become a better person.

The older you become, the more challenges you will face. It is a scary thought that it's you, yes YOU, need to be on your own 2 feet as age catches up. More responsibilities are placed on your shoulders, and your decision may affect millions. Even worse for me, as a doctor, they will come to me asking to save lives, as if I am God.

The tall order of to keep everyone happy is also another tough task to carry out. It needs no further elaboration here. I reckon maturity is an entity that we need to have, or rather develop, to be a leader, of your family to the least.

I guess what I am saying is now that I have reached a higher level of my career, I need to strive harder, to be better than what I am now.

I still have 5 more days to go, before I will be called as Medical Officer.

Putting that aside, the weekend, yeah. What about the weekend?

Started off with a bang, the committee members and I managed to gather our schoolmates to a reunion get together on Saturday. It was our first meet after 10 years. These people still look the same, some have gotten fatter, some have lost so much weight that they looked like 'mat pit'. Nevertheless, it was an event to remember. One month of hard labour haver paid off, and I couldn't help but to fall asleep while my sisters enjoying Hantu Kak Limah at 9 pm.

The next day, I was back at Kulim. A few of us gathered at Nassmir to watch Liverpool-Man Utd game. 3-1, what a night. Fernando who still echoes now and then. He is gone, and who needs him when we have Luis Suarez. Andy Carroll was given his long awaited debut, almost marked off with a superb assist to Dirk Kuyt. Kenny Dalglish, Happy Belated Birthday to you sir. You can't be more right, there is this belief in Anfield now. The fun to watch Liverpool is back.

There was another news that broke the heart of Malaysians on the same days. The people of Merlimau and Kerdau had had their say, and they voted for BN. I do not blame the defeat entirely on these relatively education lacking citizens, but rather partially must be finger pointed to Pakatan Rakyat. The entire mechanism is a mess.

Please rearrange the lines. Malaysians need a stable and strong opposition, if not a new government.

For everything that happens, there will be a reason behind it. I have fallen before, I refused to acknowledge the future can be entirely differently that you could have imagined. Allah knows best.

I leave you with this video Jason Lo - Evening News


till next time,

Friday, March 04, 2011

Restless Soul


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I reached KL at roughly 8 pm. It was a long journey, as I had to go to Penang to fetch my sister, and next to KL, it had taken me more than 4 hours to be home.

I am obviously exhausted. It is 1 am Friday morning. I feel restless. Something is troubling my mind. It isn't preoccupied with anything specific though. I don't know. I can't explain it.

For whatever it is, I still have to be thankful to Allah. Without his bless, I wouldn't have reached home tonight.

God willing, I shall be successful in getting some sleep tonight.

till next time,

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Do we dare to change?


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

It is true I suppose the domino effect has kicked in. Now it has spread to Libya, Algeria and Bahrain.

People are getting discontent with how their respective government are treating them. They manifest it, and it is their right to express it.

Regardless of whether you are an UMNO supporter or Pakatan Rakyat, it is widely accepted that the leaders in third world countries are the most corrupted ones. Stating the obvious examples are Hosni Mobarak and Ben Ali.

Sometimes this happens right under your nose and you pretend that it is never there. For example, Taib Mahmud, the Chief Minister of Sarawak. How much wealth has he amassed it beyond my knowledge. The amount is not important, but what must be made public is he is a corrupted man.

Sarawak, being Sarawak, we can foresee they will be still under BN rule for years to come. We plead for a change, and for us, who have no money and power, we rely on the educated ones to relay the info to the Sarawakians. We want change. 51% from Peninsular Malaysia voted for PR.

What differentiates Malaysia and other states are we we love peace. Not many are willing to go down the stress to protests. For us, for whatever that we want, we will let our votes do the talking.

I urge my fellow friends, to step up in your efforts to read, read and read more. I am 98% sure not many from you know what is happening in Bahrain and others. For instance, doctors were beaten to near death, Algerians machine-gunned and many more.

Do not sit down in warung and read Utusan, and start talking like you know everything. Reading Utusan and Harian Metro brings you, your race and the nation backwards. You can't disagree with this can you?

till next time,

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Sakit gigi


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I've just come back from Kuala Lumpur, the city where everybody knows my name. It was for only 2 1/2 days, but joyful nevertheless.

The only negative from the journey was the recently started never ending toothache. My goodness, Panadol can only provide temporary relief. After some, the pain returns faithfully to me. Why oh why?

I can't complain though. So little grateful have I given back to the Almighty. So little have I obeyed the rules and regulations of Islam, yet so many sins have I committed, continuously.

The time will come when this pain goes away, and good and bad moments will come, albeit continuously or alternately.

I am thankful for everything.

till next time,

Friday, February 11, 2011

Valentine's Day Part 3- The Final


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

This is the final one, the finishing touch in other words.

for muslims..fatwa kebangsaan..fatwa dah ni


ni antara yg mampu aku buat..bende dh nyata..baca ayat ni btoi2..Perayaan itu mempunyai amalan yang mendorong ke arah maksiat dan bercanggah dengan akidah, syariah dan akhlak-->jgn main2 perkara akidah..

artikel penuh
KUALA LUMPUR: Remaja Islam dinasihatkan tidak terpengaruh dengan pelbagai promosi bagi meraikan Hari Kekasih atau ‘Valentine’s Day’ kerana ia bercanggah dengan ajaran agama, sekali gus menjurus kepada perbuatan tidak bermoral.

Mufti Perlis, Dr Mohd Asri Zainol Abidin, berkata tradisi itu tidak patut diraikan
umat Islam kerana ia perbuatan yang tidak diizinkan syarak dan jika tidak dihalang, ia boleh memesongkan akidah serta menyumbang kepada gejala sosial.

“Perkara itu terbukti kerana pada Hari Kekasih, ramai pasangan mengambil kesempatan keluar berdua-duaan, ada yang turut melakukan hubungan seksdan ia
jelas menyimpang daripada landasan agama,” katanya diminta mengulas mengenai keghairahan umat Islam yang ingin menyambut Hari Kekasih pada Rabu ini.

“Oleh itu, pelbagai pihak terutama badan kerajaan dan bukan kerajaan (NGO) yang
bertanggungjawab dalam soal agama perlu bekerjasama dengan media bagi
menggerakkan kempen kesedaran kepada orang ramai mengenai hukum menyambut
Hari Kekasih,” katanya.

Sementara itu, Mufti Johor, Datuk Noh Gadut berkata muzakarah Jawatankuasa
Fatwa Majlis Kebangsaan Bagi Hal Ehwal Agama Islam Malaysia kali ke-71 yang
bersidang pada 22 hingga 24 November 2005 lalu bersetuju memutuskan bahawa
amalan meraikan Hari Kekasih tidak digalakkan agama Islam.

“Perayaan itu mempunyai unsur Kristian dan mempunyai amalan yang mendorong ke
arah maksiat dan bercanggah dengan akidah, syariah dan akhlak,” katanya.

What do you think?

till next time,

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Valentine's Day Part 2


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Part 2

Valentine's- Sangat kurang faktanya


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Kebanyakan kita sejak dari bangku sekolah lagi disuap dengan maklumat, ilmu dan segala jenis bende oleh cikgu-cikgu.

Suasana yang pasif ini menyebabkan kebanyakan kita menerima bende seadanya, tanpa mempersoalkan kesahihan atau kebatilan kenyataan2 guru2 itu.

Lihat sahaja tarikh 14 Feb ini, yang dipanggil Hari Kekasih atau Valentine's Day.

Begitu banyak cerita buruk tentang Valentine's ini, dari seorang Paderi yang menentang kerajaan, pembunuh Muslim, bercinta walaupun dia seorang paderi dan macam2 lagi. Dari mana sumbernya pun, tidak pernah diberikan.

Saya juga pernah terlintas tulisan seorang warga bukan Muslim dahulunya di Myspace. Saya tidak sempat membaca keseluruhannya. Apa yang beliau tulis ialah cerita2 baik tentang St Valentine ini.

Secara intelektualnya, dan sebagai seorang Muslim kita tidak boleh memfitnah orang sesuka hati, baik dia Muslim atau tidak. Jika anda tidak tahu apa fakta dan apa 'auta', baiklah anda jangan berbicara. Janganlah anda cuba berlagak pandai terutama dalam hal agama.

Jika ditanya oleh bukan Muslim, jika anda tidak berjaya meyakinkan hujah dengan ilmu dan sumber yang sahih, dan lebih malu jika pihak non-Muslim itu pula kata sumber pihak Kristian mereka mengatakan St Valentine itu adalah orang jenis itu dan ini. Anda bukan sahaja memalukan diri anda, tetapi impak lebih besarnya ialah anda menjatuhkan nama Islam.

Dan janganlah kamu sekalian menyerupai Yahudi dan Nasrani. H/R Ahmad.

Kenapa tidak kita menyambut Valentine's Day ini ialah kerana bukan perayaan kita. Tidak kiralah sama ada St Valentine itu pengebom berani mati ataupun pencinta wanita, perayaan ini tiada dalam agama kita.

Jika anda begitu semangat nak buktikan St. Valentine itu orang ini dan itu, silakan. Anda akan menjadi lebih berilmu daripada saya, dan jika anda rajin silalah kongsikan.

Dari Ibn Umar ra berkata : Bersabda Rasulullah s.a.w : Sesiapa yang menyerupai satu satu kaum, maka ia telah menjadi golongan mereka. H/R Ahmad, Abu Daud dan at Tabrani.

Untuk saya, Ringkas alasannya. Valentine's Day bukan hari perayaan Muslim.

Saya berterima kasih kepada pihak berkuasa kerana berkhutbah tajuk Ajaran Songsang dan Valentine's. Cume lebih baik kalau penyampaiannya lebih efektif. Lebih baik juga kalau Pemuda PAS, Pemuda UMNO dan pihak2 NGO dapat bersatu dalam mencegah maksiat. Masing2 terlalu sibuk berpolitik hingga laungan2 politik itu hanya menjadi retorik pada akhirnya. Masing2 ada BIRO agama yang hanya BIRO pada nama sahaja. PAS juga terlalu asyik berpolitik. Pemuda2 di bawah dibiarkan sahaja oleh pihak2 agama ini.

Tiga jenis manusia yang dibenci oleh Allah (antara mereka) ialah penganut Islam yang masih memilih (meniru) perbuatan jahiliah. H/R al-Bukhari.

Yang harus diterangkan ialah implikasi menyambut perayaan ini. Kesan masa pendek dan masa panjang terhadap pembangunan Islam dan negara.

till next time,
p/s saya tau kalau la pencegahan Valentine's ini sesenang kata2 di atas. Tapi apa pun, memfitnah orang bukanlah caranya.

Please, should you disagree, let us take this issue academically.

till next time,

Wednesday, February 09, 2011

Valentine's Day Part 1


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

This entry is merely a copy of what I've written before, in previous years. There are 3 entries, 1 will be entered in tonight, the rest will tomorrow and the day after I hope.

Feb 14.


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Tomorrow is the day that perhaps many have been waiting for. Why Feb 14?

Many have read several versions of Valentine's Day. Does it matter which one is the most correct? It doesn't, does it?

They say, we celebrate tomorrow in the name of love. I reckon, in the name of love many girls have fallen into the trap. In the name of love, we see statistics of unwanted delivery blooming up in November and December. In the name of love, a lot of married coupled file for a divorce.

None of these are necessary.

It is not a day to remember for us, the Muslims. We get deceived looking at all the seductive promotions of this and that, and we do not get anything in return. Who are the real ones celebrating this? Memory Lane is!

Tomorrow is not for us. It's as simple as that.

If you think the Muslims are falling behind those Western countries, celebrating Valentine's is one the reasons the Westerns' downfall. If we copy them in the unwanted and less ideal ways, we are making ourselves further left behind.

In the end, we have only ourselves to blame. It's as simple as that.

Give me your thoughts. I enjoy discussing.

till next time,

Tuesday, February 08, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I have only 1 advice to Fernando Torres. Please, please stop giving interviews. You're a mess. The more you talk, the more ridiculous you look.

I suppose you've made your decision. You get on with your life and so do we.

To the so called neutrals, which many are Arsenal, Man Utd, Man City, Spurs and Chelsea fans, please comment on these ;

Tevez to Man City
Sol Campbell to Arsenal
Ashley Cole to Chelsea

It so happens that it is Liverpool's time now, so the noises come.

You guys are perfect.

Yeah right

till next time,

Monday, February 07, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I'm absolutely glad that last week ended yesterday. It was a turbulent week, and one of the most nerve-wrecking weeks of my life.

What is sweeter was how the way it closed its curtain.

2 issues that made into the trending topics last week

1st of all, I am very grateful to Allah for bringing back my younger sister. She was stuck in Egypt. God knows how terrible it was, but she endured it. Admirable I must say. Put yourself in her shoes, and tell me if you could ever stand 1 day in Egypt without food, all sorts of communication and family.

Some have objected, and I believe they are entitled to their opinions. Still, it doesn't make sense to come up with ridiculous ideas. Have a look at my facebook, in one of the headline statuses. Incredible the way they tackle this issue.

When Kenya managed to provide 13 airplanes to bring home their citizens, it makes you wonder how slow our Government was, doesn't it?

It is your opinion, but I'm pretty sure if I didn't mention Umno in that sentence, you wouldn't have gotten angry, and I am very confident of this.

It is the mentality, I suppose.



That matter aside, I reckon most Liverpool fans are happy with the result last night. I admit I lost sleep when Torres decided to leave Liverpool. You(Torres) have left us, but is it necessary to mention what you have mentioned?

Destiny as you put it. You had Liverpool as your first hurdle, and you stumbled. What a feeling, there is no words to describe it.

I hope you chose the right club. I personally thank you for your services, but you are not welcome anymore in Liverpool. Expect hostile reception if you ever step food in Anfield again. You hurt them real bad mate.

This is funny. Forwarded from a cousin.

Not kampung when you can beat Chelsea at Stanford Bridge.

till next time

Thursday, January 27, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I think I have just rediscovered the joy of playing football. King Kenny has now get everybody going. His magic manifested in my display tonight, not terrific, but I feel good, that is how I describe it.

You know when you are scoring goals, albeit not freely, you feel that confidence is roaring high. The next one will spur you to score another one.

Though it was another futsal session, I never really enjoyed being a striker. I feel the greatest joy in defending my own keep. Going home with 3 points is more felt when you have secured a clean sheet.

The way I see myself throughout these 27 years is, I am a team player. A victory as a team is more important than winning the top goalscorer award.

I may not have the best qualities to become a leader, but believe me, when I get the right team mates, I do strive for success together.

till next time,

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Burning Sensation


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

For the past couple of days, I seem to have little motivation to get up in the morning to go to work. It is not the same anymore. The joy of coming to work is not there.

Previously, life was better, in terms of relativity. I get to express myself freely. Whatever job is given will be distributed evenly. All the time, there must be one who must break this teamwork spirit.

A happy man 4 days before

Why, why and why?

He, hardly does any job. He, runs away a lot of the time. He, comes late EVERYday. He, goes for long 'short smoking session.'

He, also however, makes it public over the smallest job he did yesterday. He, tries to portray good image in front of the seniors. He, even complains that nobody ever helps him do the job in the ward.

The seniors, well, a couple of them know of this.

You see, knowing alone does not do any good. Better still, they keep their eyes blind.

When boss praises this so called 'hardworking fella' , none of them open their mouth.

The hardest to swallow, when boss brings down several of my colleagues, none of them try to defend the juniors.

Why, why and why?

When you work your socks off, and your colleague doesn't, you get run down and he gets all the praises in the world.

Who on earth cares about the praises. To the many of us, we feel extremely low after being told off in that manner.

It does not only hurt, it kills off your motivation.

Surprisingly, fairness, I suppose, is the projected image that they see in themselves.

I know I better keep it low, at least for now. If any of them happens to read my blog, so be it. At least, I get to express myself. Knowing that our voices are not heard, the more I keep it inside, the hotter it is the burning sensation to vomit this out.

I have decided to channel it down in this blog.

Perhaps, if they come through this blog, they will have the courtesy to seek what is the truth.

Fingers crossed, and I can only hope.

till next time,

p/s All of you have been there. So, please, revise the meaning of the word fair.

Thursday, January 13, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I feel so exhausted. I haven't done much though, but this lethargy is rather not unusual. I was post on call yesterday, but the rest that I had had was insufficient.

I will be at Lumut tomorrow, for my younger sister's wedding. To be honest, I really have no idea where it is.

Who cares, as long as I get to see my family members, I'll be more than happy.

I will stop here. I badly need some rest.

till next time,

I was unpleasantly surprised when I saw this. She made a comeback!

Wednesday, January 12, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

This blog has been on a hiatus for the last fortnight. I'm terribly sorry for the lack of updates. Believe me, having to work for 34 hours non stop for 4 times since the New Year has really taken its toll. I am dead tired.

I still keep myself updated through Twitter and Mobile Facebook. I recently bought myself an Apple iPod. Pretty awesome stuff really. It is rather unfortunate that you need access to Internet in order for you to navigate the Touch to the max.

I installed an apps to perform a countdown to the end of housemanship. I am no more than 57 days away from crossing the finish line. Excited? You tell me!

Rumours are saying that I have been drafted into joining Paediatrics team in the future. Disastrous! I think I have to come to a decision that adult medical is the way to go for me.

Fingers crossed that whatever is given to me, I shall take it a challenge from Allah. I believe whatever is fated, it is for the better me.

till next time,