Wednesday, June 29, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

to be honest, I occasionally feel lonely..........

La Tahzan, sesungguhnya Allah bersama kita.

till next time,

Saturday, June 25, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Sometimes guilty strikes you when you commit a sin. Let alone if somebody commits a sin as a result of a sin that you have done?

It is like a domino effect, where one event leads to another, and it is over and irreversible, right before you know it.

I felt bad.

There needs to be an end to this problem.

Suffering is not an option this time. I need to break away from the current me, and another new Azri. A soul that commits himself to the One.

Only you Allah can guide me to the right path. Forgive me for all the sins I have committed, knowingly or unknowingly.

till next time,

Sunday, June 19, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Have you ever seen somebody suffering as a result of what you have inflicted? To be honest, I have, and it was never my intention.I never intended,and something I never wanted.

To this person, I pray that 1 day will be back on your feet, face the world as strong as it was before. I am sorry that you are not getting the support that you ought to get. I am still right behind you, but eventually it will be down to you to believe that you can get up again.

You know my position very well.

Perhaps whatever has happened is a blessing in disguise. We are weak after all. We can plan, and execute it to the max as we can. That is as far as your body can go. The final outcome will be at His courtesy. He knows what is best for us.

I wish you all the best in the future. It was a sweet 1 1/2 years for me, it really really was.

I can't promise what will happen in the future, but what is certain, I only want the best for us.

hope this soothes your heart, albeit temporarily

till the day we meet again,
adios my dear friend...........


Wednesday, June 15, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Over the past few days, I feel more calm, settled.

I don't know what has made me feel that. To a certain extent, I can confidently attribute this to the kulliyah by Dr Asri.

I think I've made up my mind. What has happened has happened. Of course, there are regrets. I suppose that is part and parcel of life. No matter how hard you try sometimes, the happy ending may be far off from what you have dreamed off.

Hence, you may as well swallow the pill, though it is bitter. Not everything that is bitter is bad.

I once, was the first to get cramps in the expedition to conquer Gunung Tahan. The group consisted of 8 boys and 8 girls. It was embarrassing to have had that, but I was in the smaller group that reached the summit eventually.

Man of the moment, Sham Kamikaze

I am now back on 2 feet and putting a smile back .

till next time,

Monday, June 13, 2011



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

So it has been a week since the incident occurred.

What do I do now? I've lost hope to be honest. On my side, albeit difficult, I am trying my best so that I can move on.

Really, it has been proven not easy more often than not.

The more you think about it, the more mess you will make.

A quick fix of hope is what I really needed now. Really...

till next time,

Saturday, June 11, 2011

I need a break


In the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

It's a beautiful Saturday. It is the last day of the weekend in Kedah. Weekend is defined as Friday and Saturday here.

The weather is stunning, cool and breezy after a late night rain. It reminds me of New Zealand somehow. Funny enough, I missed Malaysia like crazy during my stint there. I tried to get a bit of Malaysia in everything I do. I played Malay songs everyday, ate Malaysian food and many more.

Where are you now, you might ask? Well, since I became a doctor, I have hardly been at home. If I don't go out, I'll be away doing extra work, i.e. locum. 2 things, firstly extra money, and secondly to improve my clinical knowledge.

I am not the type that likes to spend hours in front of my television set. Exception is for football matches and good movies.

In the next few months to come, I look forward to having a long deserved break. I haven't decided where to go, but I need a bit of fresh air. So many ups and downs recently, hence the reason why.

I believe this is a test from Allah. God willing, I will emerge stronger.

till next time,

p/s I'll be on call tomorrow.

Friday, June 10, 2011

Rise and Fall


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Hello there, my followers!

Yeah, it has been a long short hiatus here. I apologise for that, it's nothing short than a turbulance to describe the past few weeks.

Well, I am not in the best state of mind to reveal anything yet. I guess I need some time for recovery, both mentally and physically.

I just want to say that I would like to be active here again, sharing my thoughts on anything and everything I like.

I really miss that part of my life, where I am critical in my ideas and opinions, and I get replies questioning my thoughts.

There's a saying "What does not kill you will only make you stronger". To be honest, I am not into this, but I will learn to be back on my feet again. I know I will.

Life is like this, you win some and you lose some.

Nobody likes to lose. Proven many times, winning or losing is not an option.

You just have to get on with that.

till next time,