Sunday, November 29, 2009



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I arrived safely at Kulim at 7 pm. It was a trouble free journey, though heavy rain at Gunung Semanggol slowed me down a little.

If I am not mistaken, I did mention that I would be celebrating raya here in Kulim. Surprisingly, it was rather unexpected that boss came to us and said ' Kamu semua cuti je la sampai Ahad'. So I packed up, so quick as if a master was whipping me at the back!

Raya this time around was relatively eventful. How can it be uneventful when you had diarrhoea on the 1st day? lol..I also received an invitation to go a friend's place in Kajang, to observe a slaughtering, but politely I had to say no. I just couldn't.

Anyway, I have made a booking for my 1st ever car, using my money. Alhamdulillah. Should there be no problem, the car will be ready in January. Alhamdulilah again.

In short, it has been a good weekend. Liverpool managed to TRASH(yeah right) Everton, and hopefully Internaziole, Bayern Munich and Barcelona will also pick up 3 points tonight. 1 thing that has spoiled the weekend was Roger Federer's exit in the semi final. Boring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have I mentioned I had my first futsal in the last 9 months last night? It was a good run out, and I know I still have what it takes to survive amateur level. Impressive!!

How about this photo? Backstreet Boys look alike? lol!!

I'm out.

till next time,

p/s: joke of the day

BTN courses inculcate sense of patriotism, says BN leaders

Good one UMNO/BN

Friday, November 27, 2009

Kursus BTN


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I'm terribly sorry for the lack of updates. 1 did not bring back my P1 WiMax modem, and I did not expect our wi-fi router to be out of service. As for this entry, I'm using my father's computer.

P1 Wimax - DAH POTONG?


It's a good day today, therefore I don't want to spoil the mood.

Only 1 issue, our Deputy Prime Minister. He was questioning the relevance of Selangor state government's ban on BTN course.

Quoting the Star,
MUAR: Courses run by the National Civics Bureau are not aimed at “converting” people into joining Umno or Barisan Nasional, Deputy Prime Minister Tan Sri Muhyiddin Yassin said.

“I don’t know why they want to prevent people from attending nation-building courses to instil patriotism and the 1Malaysia concept,” he told reporters after presenting 31 cows for Hari Raya Haji to villagers in Pagoh yesterday.

What is the benefit of stopping the people from attending the courses?” he asked.

I personally have been to 2 BTN courses.

So, I guess he was telling the truth.


Will write again soon,

till next time,

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

2 views and 2 view


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

It has been a good day. I did some extra-hospital work to earn some money, and I closed the curtain today with Pulseless Ventricular Tachycardia(or pulseless V-Tac, says Daniel Quistroff). Nice...

Has anyone had a look at the newly launched Kia Forte? For a 2.0L car, it costs only RM93k. I suppose the price is right if anyone is looking for a Class C car. I spoke to both of my brothers, and they share the same consistency in their views. Therefore I've made up my mind finally. I will opt for Alza, and I do not think there is any car out there that sits on par with this car. So, it's ALZA!!!


I am slightly different in comparison to other guys. Cars are not my passion. I speak better when it comes to latest gadgets and technology, where my passion truly lies. A friend came over to my room to discuss over his newly purchased camera, and he was rather surprised that it is not Canon, Nikon or Panasonic that sits on top of the best camera. Surprise surprise it's Fujifilm!

Elaborating more on cameras, Nikon has launched their new camera that incorporates a projector inside!

Samsung is the 1st camera to combine a digital compact camera, Wi-Fi, Bluetooth and GPS.

For the ladies, Samsung is also a good option for those who love taking self-taken photos.

the only sad thing about this technologies, we, the Muslims, are only the consumers. We do not posses the technology to rule the world.

As what Prof Yusuf Qardhawi is preaching in this video, we import everything from needles to missiles. We have become too lazy. We adapt very well to Western cultures with their clubbing, smoking and drugs. Congratulations.

I need to do some work before going to bed.

till next time,

Tuesday, November 24, 2009



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

It's a relief to hear that my father is doing well post angiogram. Thanks to my mother for keeping me updated. Sometimes, things like this make you want to come back home often. However, stepping in to the real world, you don't always get things the way you want it to be.

Even better, for a junior doctor like me, we are only given 8 days off for 1 posting, that is equivalent to 4 months. Hasn't anyone told you that we work 7 days a week? Nice............

Even nicer, we work 365 days per year for 2 consecutive years. Nice........

Personally, though as bad as it sounds, I truly enjoy work.

Will I want to work for 10 years everyday non stop? YES!!!!

yeah right.

I need to get up early tomorrow

till next time,

Monday, November 23, 2009

No Remorse


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I made RM310 from 1 on call. Amazing, no? How did I manage to do it, let me keep it to myself. Perhaps, for the interest of everyone, I don't sell drugs or join MLM(multi level marketing).

I am physically and mentally drained. It was not a bad call last night, which makes my inability to fall asleep remains unanswered. I tried and tried, and I did not work. =(, =( and =(. The next morning, our beloved boss instructed me to perform a circumcision(for Muslim boys).

I nearly fell asleep while waiting for them to start. Being a rationale person, I thought it would be for the best if I, to the maximum, assisted. So they agreed, and I went for lunch right after the 3rd one.

Post lunch, I did not go home. I went to ...................(fill in the blanks).

In less than 4 days we the Muslims will be celebrating Hari Raya Aidiladha. It's too late to express my remorse now. I gave my colleagues the chance to apply for holiday since they live nearby. I did not know Hari Raya Haji was going to be on the weekend! Now who will I celebrate this Raya with?

Or where should I go to?

I don't want to come back home after Solat Raya and bring down my GCS level again.

On the other hand, I will be away to Langkawi for a week. Nice! Paid working-cum-holiday, how nice more could you want? Whangarei(pronounced as Fangarei), New Zeland

Or perhaps, a holiday like this?

Ideas people, ideas!

till next time,
p/s =)

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Sheer frustration


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I'm fuming. What a display by Dirk Kuyt. Call him Mr Duracell or whatever, for me, I have hardly wanted him in the squad!. Sure he does run a lot, but he's a striker for heaven's sake. Once, Torres was injured and he was made the lone striker. Being Mr Duracell, he wasn't even a threat, making things better, he was at times seen helping the defenders. We applaud his workrate, but that's not why he is paid for.

His display tonight was a shame. He's a man with good personality of course. Does this matter on the field? It does, but it means little if you have little skills to light up the match.

I do not hate players per se. At the end of the day, your goal statistics matter. Aye?

I am no different in comparison to other Koppites. We share the same frustration.

So do the Irish fans. Classic Mr Cantona comments,

"What shocked me most wasn't the handball, honestly," said Cantona. "What shocked me most was that at the end of the match, in front of the television cameras, this player (Henry) went and sat down next to an Irish player to console him, even though he'd screwed them three minutes earlier.

"If I'd been Irish, he wouldn't have lasted three seconds."

It's a bitter pill to swallow now eh Henry, coming from your fellow countryman?


I'm frustrated. I'm tired.

till next time,

Friday, November 20, 2009

Rambut gugur


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I had to go to Dinas right after my evening shift at A&E. Really, when I had my brunch at 10.30am, I thought that would be sufficient to keep my stomach full for at least 5-6 hours. Barely 4 hours post brunch, my body started converting fat to ketone to keep me awake. Huh..

I wanted to go out and get something for dinner(2nd lunch actually), but the visitors never stopped coming in and I had to entertain each and everyone of them. They came to A&E for reasons as trivial as conjunctivitis! This is absolutely an abuse to the system. How can everyone expect the hospital to be quick in treating them when they come with this problem?

Emergency in the word A&E means nothing to many I suppose?

I try to put myself into the shoes of the people, and I understand their plight. Having said that, I still think this creates an unnecessary burden to the staff of emergency department.

I will not force you to believe, but once a patient turned at 3 am(morning) anc complained ' Doktor, rambut saya gugur'. That doc replied 'dah berapa lama?', and as hillarious as it sounds he replied 'dah 3 bulan dah'.

It is subjective, though for me this is absolute nonsense.

Even if there was no Klinik Kesihatan available @ midnight, you need not come at 3 am for this right? Pasal rambut gugur lak tu!

I'm tired. I need sleep.

till next time,

MAN CITY - LIVERPOOL this weekend. Any prediction? Aquilani to start?

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Mission Accomplished


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

My day started off very well indeed! My alarm was set at 5.50, 5.55 and 6.00 am, but ironically it woke me up at 6.30. In less than 25 minutes, I managed to get myself ready for an Basic Emergency Course at Sultan Abdul Halim Hospital, Sungai Petani. Efficient right?

I thought the whole course was beneficial. Now I feel more like a doctor, that I need to be constantly prepared for whatever may come. Even things that I thought I knew very well, I could not be more wrong. For instance, one needs to be careful in interpreting fine VF(ventricular fibrillation) and asystole. To defibrillate or CPR eh?

What makes it more memorable was the presence of 1 very cute Chinese(Malaysian) girl. I almost melted at room temperature. I stood still however, being the cool me as always.

The course ended at 4.30 pm. Dorothy and I, we thought we should make use of our rare trip to Sg. Petani. So, we decided to give it a go. We roamed around the town and found some interesting places, to me at least.

Interesting, isn't it?

I never set out any mission for today. Nevertheless, I felt mission accomplished when I reached Kulim again.

Did I not mention the shirt that I bought? A white T-shirt bearing the picture of Steven Gerrard - Captain Fantastic.

I feel good. It was a fruitful trip. Cute Chinese Girl, Anfield Burger and Steven Gerrard shirt? How complete more could you want?=)

till next time,

Monday, November 16, 2009



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I have been working in the government hospital for close to 9 months now. I suppose my 3 year stint in NZ has largely influenced the way I work and think.

I'm now in my 2nd week of my 3rd posting. I am now placed at Accident&Emergency. I still find it weird to be known as Dr Azri.

In NZ, Dr Azri is only reserved for me if I ever become a Consultant. In Malaysia, I suppose it's the pride of 'Oh, I'm a Doctor, therefore people must address me as Dr. X'. Even if you are only in Day 1! Whichever way you want to address me, I will not turn my back on you. On the whiteboards, many House Officers(junior doctors) will leave their name and phone no as Dr X - 019-2222222. For me, it's written by me this way - Azri - 019 2222 222. Easy, no?

It also makes me restless that I have to put on my white coat on daily basis. I think it's better not to mention why. During my medical student days, white coat was never compulsory. We go to hospital with our normal formal working attires.

By no means I want to say the practices here are bad. I love my job. If I was only given a chance to state my reason for coming back, it has to be none other than my love to this country. Here in Malaysia, terima kasih means much better than thank you. I am posted a district hospital, and I am thankful to Allah for whatever He has given to me.

Now that it is my 9th month in Hospital Kulim, I find that I have done more things(procedures) in comparison to my colleagues in NZ and Australia. I don't know much about UK, Scotland or Ireland. Here in Kulim also we don't have too many house officers (which is good of course)!

So, is Malaysia a bad place? No at all!

Afiq, Yan, Yop, Keri, Tapa, Pokeh, Ikram, Rafi, Mr Big Shot, Akak, Huzaimy - 2006

My 3 year stint in NZ has also made very happy when NZ All Whites have qualified for next year's World Cup 2010 in South Africa. Well done! Who knows, if they know how to do 'Haka' well, they might scare off Brazil and go all the way to win the World Cup. lol! talking about fantasy eh?

Malaysia - New Zealand All Whites 2006.

Congrats again to the All Whites!! It's a sheer joy to us who spent a minimum 3 years in NZ.

I need to stop writing now. I am on call tonight.

till next time,

p/s having said whatever I have said above, I know I am far from becoming a perfect person. =) and =(

Sunday, November 15, 2009

You're Cool!


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

You're Cool!

yeah, I'm pretty bored at the moment. I'm 4 hours away from my routine night sleep, but I reckon I need to have some intellectual input to my already rusted brain. I know so little yet there's a huge responsibility rested on my shoulder. Therefore, I'LL STILL BE ONLINE tonight but lesser attention will be given I suppose.

Yeah, I need to start studying now. My Canadian ex-classmate told me, stop using 'yeah'. The Kiwis use 'yeah' a lot.

till next time,

Saturday, November 14, 2009

X factor..


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I love my job!! Everyday I wake up I will forward to having a good day. This A&E(Accident & Energency) posting is fun and thrilling. You get to see from same lame old cases to the ones you would only see in once in a lifetime. Everyone is nice, they talk to everyone, and for me it wasn't that difficult to mingle with these MA's(medical assistants) as I play football with them.

Zlatan Ibrahimovic, previously in the blue and black of Internaziole.

It is either they are nice people or I am super friendly. I think it's the latter!! lol..

It is also this good feeling factor that makes me back on my feet. Previously my page averaged an average of 1000 visitors per month. I have lost that in the last few months and now slowly I am getting them back. Good good. I did not install 'feedjit' if you know what I mean. So feel free to roam at this page anytime anywhere.

I haven't solat yet. Till next time. It's 11.48pm local time.


Friday, November 13, 2009

The Blessing


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

little by little, now I can slowly the blessing from that 'incident'. Alhamdulillah. It is getting more obvious every day.

I don't see it as a loss now. I really don't.

This is your life as you have chosen. You decide as you would like.

For whatever mistakes I have done to myself, I pray to Allah that He will forgive me.

To those who might take this issue differently, the word revenge is non existent in my life's dictionary, honestly. I pray for everyone's well being. I am the type that keeps no enemy. I feel guilty even if I scold somebody for the right reason, and hopefully that tells a lot.

till next time,

p/s: off to work soon (making extra money)

Business mode


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

today we received our schedule for November. Pretty flexible the way I see it. I get to organise now how to make extra money, and a lot of things too.

I have only just come back from lepak-ing session with my MO and MA. They were sort of persuading me to join into their business venture. Looking @ the money prospects, I suppose I have more reasons to say yes than no. The question is, will I have the time to commit myself to another commitment, when I can't accomplish my current mission properly.

As everyone would like to put it, money is not everything. I bet more than 99.784% would agree money is important and can give you loads of things.

Kuih business, perhaps?

Having said this, few who know me relatively well, money is never on top of priority list. This could be utterly rubbish, but, money and power do not appeal to me as much as other things.

For example, insyaAllah, I would trade my holiday for an umrah. And I wouldn't mind spending perhaps thousands just for an experience @ the Kop, Merseyside. Or as boring as it sounds, I want to be @ the summit of Bekelah, the 7 layered waterfall. Counting the real stars here is so much better than the journey Jeff Goldblum and Will Smith endured in ID4(Independence Day).

Should I join the business? Many have interpreted this wrongly, but this is one of the instances where solat istikharah is encouraged.

Whichever decision I may take, I seek for Allah's guide. He's the Best.

till next time,

Wednesday, November 11, 2009



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Somehow, I feel addicted to writing again. I get to express my thoughts, though I am a bit selective in choosing the subtopics.

Today marks the 1st day of my A&E run. It was fun. The day kicked off with 1 MVA. It was my first time, and though my right hand was shivering(obviously), I managed to calmly cannulate the patient. Ironic is it not? Cannula can be interpreted as branula in Malaysia, but tell me, could you branulate if you were asked to cannulate a patient. Sounds funny, doesn't it?

My English sucks. That's the reason why I brought back my English for Malaysian to Kulim.

Interestingly, I got palpitation while walking to the ward. Eh, I should have had an ECG, shouldn't I? Yeah, if it was for the right reason, then you make the decision okay.

My life resolves on a lot of things these days. Most likely I would not be going home for Raya Haji. It's obvious that I wouldn't, due to a short period holiday.

I have also proudly pledged to donate my organs. Long have I planned to have this done, and finally the day has come. There's only 1 reason for this. Simple, it is an investment. An investment that hopefully will pay its divident when it matters. Whoever gets these, regardless of your religion or race, it is well beyond my knowledge. What I've been taught is to be kind to everyone.

This is not 'riak'. My intention is solely to encourage all the Muslims to do the same.

I am sleepy. Tagging lasts from 8am-10pm daily.

till next time,

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

17 again


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

alhamdulillah, I have turned 17 today. I have received so many birthday wishes that I find it impossible to reply to all. Therefore, thank you to everyone. You guys have made my day.

I woke up quite early!!!early is subjective, if you find me waking up @ 9 am today is late, I won't be arguing with you. Hehe..This is my last day of holiday before I join A&E tomorrow. Therefor, being a productive me, I went to post office, mamak and hospital eventually to sort out my stupid log book.

Got a message from Kit Chung today, 'Joe, happy birthday', u r 26 so act like 1'. lol!!!Kit Chung was a brother to me in Auckland. He's very open minded and I find it easy to discuss anything like a mature man. Mature as in the way of thinking la, not age. I miss our lepaking session la bro..

I wish for a better Azri Fickry for years to come. Better in all aspects, and mature in taking on the challenges of life. I regret none of the things that had happened before, they are part and parcel of life. You win some and you lose some. You tell people that you can't have everything in life, and ironically when life hits you badly, you feel like slapping them in the face for saying that. I suppose I'll try to now walk the talk, rather than talking rubbish.

Ezhar Fahim(cousin), Azizi(2nd bro), Azri Fickry(Mr Big Shot)

The latest pic of me. Kelate 1-3 N9. Fantastic experience I tell you. Previously I've been to many finals, but nothing beats this frenziness in Kelantanese supporters.

I still can't believe I am now 26. If it helps(me), that 20 year old Malay girl @ the laundry asked 'awak ni student lagi ke'? that cooled down the soul bro..

This day is also now a reminder to me that each day takes me closer to death. Whether I am ready for it or not, should the fate decide it is going to happen tomorrow, it will happen. Allah Knows Best.

to conclude, all praise be upon Allah, and I thank Him for whatever You have given me in this life. Alhamdullilah.

"Ya Allah, berikanlah kebaikan kepadaku di dunia, kebaikan di akhirat, dan jauhilah aku dari azab nerak". Amin

till next time,

Sunday, November 08, 2009

Kembali Ke Asas


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

sesetengah perkara boleh diubah. Mungkin cara bermain bola, hiasan rumah, cara pemakaian dan juga cara berinteraksi.

Sesetengah perkara, seperti perangai, juga boleh diubah. Tetapi mungkin sukar untuk sesetengah individu.

Kita cuma manusia biasa yang hanya tahu merancang. Kita tidak tahu apa akan terjadi pada masa hadapan. Kerana apa? Kerana kita manusia dan tiada sesiapun di kalangan kita pernah atau akan menjadi Tuhan.

Kita tidak tahu keputusan yang kita buat ketika ini adalah kejayaan atau kesilapan pada masa hadapan. Ia terlalu subjektif. Mungkin satu tahun daripada sekarang, kita akan berfikir dan ingin masa dipusing kembali dan kita buat keputusan yang sebaliknya.

Tiada manusia yang sempurna sebenarnya. Julio Ceaser pernah berkata 'Kami datang, kami lihat dan kami takluk'. Tidak semua yang ditakluki beliau membawa kepada kebahagiaan ataupun kejayaan.

Yang penting, semuanya yang telah lepas telah menjadi sejarah. Kita bersyukur kepada Allah atas segala rahmatNya, dan kerana kita manusia, kita wajar mempelajari kesilapan kita. Allah Maha Mengetahui, dan mungkin kita jatuh sekarang, tetapi mungkin 10 minit lagi, kita akan berada di puncak dunia.

Mungkin juga kita rasa kita telah berjaya sekarang, tetapi 15 minit lagi kita terjatuh.

Allah Maha Mengetahui.

till next time,

p/s talking to friends helps a lot. Thanks.

The World of Purchase


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Honestly telling, I thought I was close to being the normal me. I thought I accepted well what was discussed that night. Somehow that 95% has gone to 85-90% now.

If I were to speak up my mind, I would probably feel slightly relieve. Knowing that these thoughts that occupy my mind are expressed out to the right parties. I have the guts I suppose, but as I said, I would just swallow my pride if I have to. As I have said before.

I've felt for months that I have nothing to prove.

Have I got a long way to run
Yeah, I run

I bid farewell to the beautiful journey I treasured. Nothing lasts forever, eh?

till next time,

Friday, November 06, 2009

The Lesson


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I am now @ KL. This is home. Though not too many are around at the moment. Everyone's grown up and has the own families to take care of, so my day has been relatively uneventful till now.

Last time, during holidays, right after work I would immediately get my car started and drive down to KL. The motivation wasn't there last night, and I was post call plus I needed to get my log book sorted out. I suppose the motivation is always there, but it has become less.

I think I am now better. Perhaps 95% ?

Now I think I know why this has happened. Truly, Allah knows Best. He plans only the best for His faithfuls. It's a lesson for me. After doing some unplanned thinking, I think before I lost her, I had lost myself much earlier. Really. I did what I preach as incorrect. I lost the battle.

Nevertheless, I will never put the blame 100% on me. I have no regrets in my intention to stop you.

Now that it has happened, I sincerely wish you all the best in your future. We are friends still. =)

I need opinions here. I've contemplated a few options as my 1st car. Should I go for,

a) Honda City
b) Toyota Altis
c) Civic
d) Lancer(less likely now)

Really I am confused.

This weekend I am proud to announce my support for Kelantan. Gomo Klate Gomo!!

till next time,



in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

tomorrow is Organ Donation Day, InsyaAllah, I would like to pledge mine. InsyaAllah.

n right after that, I am off to Kuala Lumpur for a 5 day break. I badly need this, because I have been working extremely hard.

I will write again.

till next time,

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Walk the talk.


in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I am sorry for the lack of updates. I have been busy, and doing every alternating day calls is taking its toll on me. I feel burnt out.

1 thing that keeps me going is the thought of going home(KL) this Thursday/Friday.

I didn't know how to say 'no' after so many times, therefore I did my 1st locum yesterday after 4-5 months. I felt hollow. I don't why I work so hard to earn extra money for. I need guidance. I need help. I need to feel what is the purpose of life. I don't need words, I need a guide.

Allah has His plans when he made me work back to back on calls for 8 consecutive times with only 1 day off in the middle. I was slightly depressed, and I have recovered, though not 100% yet.

For me, money gives you a lot of things. Unfortunately, they can't provide you everything. I have been blessed with a lot of things, and being a normal human being, I am never satisfied with what I have. I want a long lasting trouble-free life, and as my good friend had said 'bukan senang nak jadi senang, dan tak susah nak jadi susah'. kan? and there is another life in the Hereafter that we are chasing for too, so bukan senang nak jadi senang kan?

Let's not sulk anymore, shall we?

Azri Fickry - 2 years ago. hehe. Slash Guns N Roses eh?

till next time,