Discontent

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Been a while, right?

It's very odd that you feel like you are living on a fast line, when you are actually working in a district hospital? Supposedly quiet, with less troublesome headaches of bureaucracy. That does not happen here. People always want you to give 100%, yet nothing ought to be asked from them.

I'm tired of this. If I could rewind time, I would take my wife back to Kulim. It was home. Or if somebody could, please, please take me away from Banting.

I don't feel appreciated here, yet I am 1 of the most reliable here.

Nobody's listening.  Sigh

till next time,
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PALS

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I passed PALS! After 3 days of a super exhausting course and exams, I can finally relax.

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Not Ideal

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I'm bored.

It is still an hour away before my car service is complete. I've gone to most of my routine websites, and I don't know what to do now. I drove all the way from Banting. Purposely left the place at 8.15am, with the hope of avoiding the traffic. Who would've thought the traffic would be equally bad as 6pm's?

I should've gone to Kelang instead. I did not, because I reckon coming to a place where I am more familiar with would make me more comfortable. Mistake, mistake. Now I need to stay on the road for an hour more, to reach Banting.

So many complaints. So little time, so much to do.

till next time,
assalamualaikum

Burnt out

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Where else can I be writing this from? It is 10.50pm, and not 2 minutes ago I was informed another case is coming in.

Today is a strange day. We completed our round before proceeding to my presentation. The topic was 'Dehydration and Electrolytes Imbalance'. I thought I did well. Since 5 pm, I started to feel a sense of restlessness.

Tomorrow is only half day for me, and I'll have some time for rest. Saturday, I have a wedding to attend. Sunday is on call. Next weekend, another 2 weddings for me. The weekend after is on call. The subsequent weekend is PALS course.

How can I not complain? I feel burnt out. I just need a break. Did I manage to utilise last weekend for me? No!! Altogether, it will be 5 weekends in a row without a break.

I can choose not to go to these weddings. Having said that, some things are beyond your power to have a say.

I gotta stop. Patient hasn't come yet, but I'm in no cheerful mood.

Till next time,
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You!

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

You! Yes, you! Why are you reading my blog?

I'm bored. I'm in the middle of completing a power point presentation this Thursday. Come and join me. The topic is Dehydration and Electrolytes Imbalance.

Gotta go.

till next time,
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Euphoric!

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In the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Hi folks! I just got off from my treadmill, n it feels euphoric to have so much endorphin circulating in your body. Still sweating though.

Back in 2011,  going to the gym was a routine. No, not the weight lifting stuff. I would spend 30 minutes on average for cardio, and another 10-20 minutes on my will-never-get-slimmer tummy. Come July 2011, it all stopped. The desire to come home was too good to turn down.

Now that life isn't as turbulent as before, I hope I can allocate some good minutes whenever I can for exercise. They say investing in health is the best investment ever. I'm pretty sure those good things for you do not come for free. Money, health, spouse, you name it. You have to work hard to achieve them.

So guys, come and join me. Endorphin is equivalent to euphoria. Try it!

For my wife,



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Update

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In the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Pity my wife. She has been firing on all cylinders for the past 2 days. She is one of the organisers of district level 'Karnival Jelajah Sihat'. She's now soundly asleep, and I just let her be. The amount of effort she put in was magnificent. Fortunately, tomorrow is a day off for all Malaysians. Therefore, we have all the time in the world for both of us.

It wasn't a quiet night for me either. I was on my 5th on call of the month. I stepped into the ward, only to find that less than half of the patients had been seen. I wondered why. How unlucky you could be when you start your call with a premature baby of 30 weeks, weighing 1.2 kg. Resuscitation alone took about 2 hours, before we eventually transferred her to a Kelang Hospital.

May Allah grant you health to you, you tiny boy.

Now, let's talk about future. Previously I did mention that I had handed in my Masters application form. After speaking to several experts, I have decided that I want to go for MRCPCh exams in February next year. I don't know what is best, but I don't want waste much more time.

Banting is a nice place. They've been kind towards me, but I can't stand doing the same thing any longer. It would be nice if our Ministry of Health listened to the grassroots. The schedule I find is anything but free.

Serious matters aside, have any of you tried Line? It's another apps, available in most Os. It comes in very handy, and cute too. It is something like WhatsApp, but better. Do add me up.

I will have photos in my next entry. 

till next time,
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Syawal

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In the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

It has been 2 months since the last entry. Life is never getting easier, and I face more and more challenges everyday.

We are still in Syawal, the month of celebration after 1 month of fasting. It is only Day 1 of Syawal that is the Day of celebration. Something that can never be changed is our tradition to have the whole month for celebration.

While other people are attending open houses everywhere, I am stuck in the on call room. I wish I could change the whole system.

Not all is bad. I have lived together with my beloved wife for close to 3 months now. Happier of course. We are still working to our best capacity to furnish the house. With fixed salary, this must be done in bits. Still I try to achieve without compromising my coffers.

Funny, I bought this when it is not in our to-buy list. I realise that I have my fitness level has reached the lowest since I started this work. Knowing that I have a minimum 7 on calls + 7 post (on)calls, I have a maximum of 16 days for physical activities. Minus 4 weekends, I am left with 8 days. How much can I achieve with that?

On the academic side of me, I have applied for Masters programme in July. Yes, it is Paediatrics. Fingers crossed, I hope the application will go well. Should I get it, I next hope to come out of the programme alive. Lol!

till next time,
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Emo

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I don't what has got into me tonight, but I am a bit emo now.

I wish, more than anything now, that all of us are reunited under one roof again.

   

Kami doakan papa diampunkan semua dosa dan diberikan ketenangan di sana. Family ties are closer than ever. Many events to come will be different without your presence. 

We miss you. 

till next time,

assalamualaikum 

Euro fever

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Everybody seems zombified since the beginning of Euro 2012. I, too, can't help it.

To avid followers, they surely know that I have been a Germany supporter through thick and thin. My opinion remains the same, that Micheal Ballack is one of the best midfielders in the world. Though his playing career is almost over, his class acts last forever.

The charisma that he possesses is an inspiration for me. Typical German, he rose to stardom in 2004. He almost single handedly led Bayer Leverkusen to 3 trophies, only to falter right at the finishing line. He then masterminded Germany's progress in the next World Cup, Euro, World Cup and Euro again.

We are still at early stages. Tonight France will play England. The underperfoming England boast some gifted players, but have failed to lift any trophy since, 1966? My bad, it's too long that anybody can remember.

To the preachers, now is the best time for you to preach. Be smart. Do not tell them 'why can you wake at 2 am to watch football, but you are so weak to perform a 2 rakaat solat?'. Instead tell them, right after the game, why not spend 5-10 minutes for a short prayer, i.e. Tahajjud. Sounds nicer and softer, doesn't it?

It is natural. The more restrictions you place on them, the more rebellious they will become. If they enjoy watching football, so be it. We were thought of the 'wasatiah' concept, so practise it.



I am wataching to this video as I am typing. Very beneficial, in my opinion.

till next time,
assalamualaikum

Lompat Katak

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

As of 3.30 pm 10th of June 2012, nobody from Sabah has defected to PR, or more specifically to PKR. Elections are around the corner, everybody knows that. So why are we getting defections at this close to 11th hour?

Do all of you actually condone this attitude?

I personally don't. However, there are always exceptionals right? If one was never offered money, why should it be a problem.

You can't deny that more often that not, incentives are offered. It is very difficult to trust one's intention and honesty nowadays. One MP jumps to PKR, one finally finds the 'truth' in BN, and few have gone independent.

All I want to see is a change, that Malaysia badly needs. A total reform is required to take the nation to a greater height. GE 13, I hope Malaysians will all come and vote. Not only that, vote for the right one!

till next time,
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Mixed emotions

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Im feeling pretty excited at the moment!I get to see wifey tomorrow. For us, it's the same cycle again every week. We'll be counting days and hours before the world becomes ours again.

Lol! Sounds very feminine eh? Perhaps it does.

It's not we live together. She's still Malaccans and I, here have to work my socks off to earn a decent salary. Our schedules hardly match each other's. She gets alternate weekends off, whereas for me the schedule is fixed a month before the present.

So unlike other married couples, our life is about exchanging phone calls and photos every day. Sounds a bit like university students doesn't it? Lol!! You must be wondering why on earth am I having a photo of mine in this entry? It's one of the photos that I sent to her when I was on call.

Her transfer request form has finally reached Ministry of Health, Putrajaya. God Willing, she'll be in Banting in no time.

Soon, sister is coming back from Canada with her family. Another to reach KLIA in July 3rd, and insyaAllah the family will be complete before raya. It breaks our hearts that one person is lacking, and he is sorely missed.

We miss you pa. Not a single day passes we never think of you. Kitorang cuba doakan papa selalu. We thank you for what you have done, what you have given to us.

You know, if it wasn't for your request, I would have insisted Sungai Buloh for the wedding venue. =). If it wasn't for you, I would not be where I am now.

I really hope all of us will meet again in syurga.

till we meet again pa,

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You'll walk alone sometimes

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Right now, I am on the 3rd consecutive on call. My family members have questioned me, why do I have to work so hard?

This is the only way I know how to make some money. I would let go on call if I could. I don't feel at  home here in Banting. I really hate covering O&G.

You can't run away from problems. But, how do u react when you are wrongly blamed for doing things you never did?

I told them many times, The reason I hate O&G so much is because I do not want to go through sleepless nights thinking over mistakes that I did.

I did not kill anyone. I did not injure anyone.

What I loathe is to be held responsible, on things I have little knowledge about. I warned them beforehand, that it would do more harm than good if I was given the responsibility.



Yeah yeah, 'we went through worse before'.

Very mature attitude indeed.

till next time,
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Komplen bro!

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I am now in my on call room. I could be called to see a new patient anytime. I've had my lunch so I thought, why not spend some time writing?

Ever since I started work in Banting, the longest streak of being away at home was 3 days and 2 nights. This time, this is my second night, with 2 more nights to go. 5 days away, and it is like one of the longest period of waiting I can recall.

I was in Kulim before, and returning home once a month is a bless before, I shouldn't be complaining, should I?

Long have I yearned to settle down in 1 place. Go to work, then home, some exercise, prayer and spend time with the family before calling it a day. I really want that. My life is like a nomad. 1 day I am in Banting, the next day in TTDI, and Melaka the day after.


Patience is the key. Patience is a virtue.

Today, one of my colleagues left us for a greener pasture. She's currently pregnant for the third one. She admits that it is a sacrifice that she has to make for the family. Husband is pursuing his studies to become a Oromaxillofacial specialist.

I reckon the only to stop becoming a slave is to gain as much knowledge as possible. Then climb the ladder up before you can eventually start giving orders. The climb is the most difficult part, once it is overcame, the greener pasture will be more green that the greenest you could ever imagine about.

Even when you reach the top, you will still be ranting of this and that. A complaint makes you plan what is better for you, doesn't it? So complaining is not really bad after all!

till  next time,
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For my wife

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I find this song very soothing, and I wanna dedicated it to my beloved wife.



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Emo, Distressed

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

We finished celebrating Yah's(niece) birthday an hour ago. I am now in my room and I feel so lonely tonight. I do not know why.

Life hasn't changed much. Routine takes place everyday, but sometimes it gets very dull. I wake up to the same thing, work, work  and work. It takes 2 1/2 hours minimum everyday for TTDI-Banting-TTDI trip.

What I think is ideal is to have a free and meaningful weekend, where time can be allocated for family and friends. Ever since coming to Banting, I have worked than 50% of the weekends each month. Imagine having to work in 3 out of 4 weekends. Don't ever mention the normal working days.

There are things you will never understand. Here in Malaysia, we produce more than 4000 doctors per annum. Where do these people go after completing their housemanship? We seem not to have enough doctors wherever I go.

Selangor and Kuala Lumpur are 2 states that I find it difficult to fathom. They have the most number of house officers. Apparently it is their policy that all will be sent out of state upon completing housemanship, meaning they will be everywhere all over the country.

The scenario above will directly tell you there is abundance of doctors in the states non Klang Valley. That isn't the case it seems. Every state seems to be struggling with the number of doctors. Ironic, these states have a policy that many will be retained within their own respective states.

So, funny is it not when you wonder where these doctors are?

Go on talking that doctors need to render the best to the needy ones. Don't get us wrong. The majority of us are doing are this for our passion. Does this mean we need to sacrifice everything for your happiness, and leave us with none?

We are not void of feelings you see. We want to see our family and friends too.

One cannot help to wonder why teachers get the most attention in our country, when actually we are the ones working for 30 consecutive hours, sacrificing our sleep and weekend for the people? Do we get the pay that we deserve? No!

My bad, forgive me. We are doctors. We ought to be doing this for free. We are robots.

enough of emo stuff

till next time,
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500th

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

This is my 500th entry of this blog.

In conjunction with Mother's Day today, I would like to wish Happy Mother's Day to my mother. I love you dearly, and I thank you for all you have done for all of us. Papa's passing hasn't been easy to all of us, let alone you.

Allah is the Perfect Planner. He's the Almighty. From the time I got transferred to KL, till now. Everything swings into a motion smoothly. Though the schedule was ultra hectic, I was given the priviledge to be with my father for 5 months.



I miss his presence.

All I can say is I want to make this entry a tribute to my mother and late father. I offer my service to the both them, while I am still alive. I make doa to Allah to forgiv, and bless them.

till next time
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Papa

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

It is 1 am, and I do not feel sleepy yet. It takes to get used to the feeling that your loved one has left you, forever.

It was just another Friday for me last week. I hadn't seen my wife for 2 weeks, so I decided to spend some time in Melaka with her. I last saw my dad Tuesday last week, when we watched the Kelantan Kedah game together. I went to sleep after the game, and so did he.

Wednesday was my locum, and the day after I had to stay for my on call. Therefore, Friday I thought I should be in Melaka. In the evening I went online to book for 2 tickets. At first when I received the call from Ana(my sister), I thought it was just another call from her, so I decided not to pick up, since I was in the movie. She called again, and I felt something was not right. She was crying, and said 'Papa pengsan".

I immediately left the building, and told my wife that we needed to drive back to KL, as soon as possible. We never packed, and I was in constant contact my sisters, tried telling them what to do. I couldn't think straight, I don;t know what made me call Collin, but I did. I told him, my brothers have started CPR. What a good man he was, he ran immediately from his place to give his best shot to help reviving my dad.

Along the way, another sister called, telling me 'papa dah takde'. I was already quiet when we started to drive from Melaka. I did not drive. I told my wife 'if you think you can drive any faster than me, then, please, drive the car'. She took the key without question.

The moment we reached TTDI, tears started flowing down. I just couldn't help it. There was a large crowd when we reached home. I never planned what to do or how to react. I first hugged my brother, and soon after, I went in. I was in disbelief with what I saw.  Believe me, I can't remember when was the last time I cried this bad.

Being a doctor, seeing dead bodies is a norm. You get numbed after seeing one case after another. It doesn't make you treat the next one any worse, however. You always try to give your best to keep one alive, and sometimes you are lucky, and sometimes you just have find your way to sleep through the night. This time, It was my dad.

Everyone knows 'nobody lives forever'.

Today is Day 3 since his passing. I thank everyone, especially my mother, my syblings, relatives, friends and colleagues. The support that we have had is extraordinary. My mother has been the pillar of strength for all of us. It is not that easy to let the memory go away just like that. She had 36 years together with him, went through ups and downs with him. 

We sorely miss you pa. None of us can afford to be alone at the moment, otherwise tears would be shed. Everything at home reminds us of papa.

We hope you are doing fine there. We will try to send you gifts everyday.We know you are watching us, and hopefully we will make you happy everyday. To be where we are now, we are thankful that Allah lent you to us. It is an unforgettable journey that we have had.

It is beyond our imigination that you have exerted so much impact to the public as well. They have written so many thing about you pa.

FICKRY YAACOB DALAM KENANGAN

DR ASRI - AYAHANDA FICKRY! Saya tangisi pemergian ini

Fickry, Anak Kelantan dan Karangkraf

Belangsungkawa Buat Keluarga Datuk Fickry Yaacob

Al-Fikrah

Take care, pa.

till we meet again.

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Latest update from Kelantan

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful




A speech from YB Hj Husam Musa. You have got to view the video in order to understand the problems and its solutions

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Counting Hours

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

It is 6.48pm now, and I still have 11 hours more to go before I can start packing up to go home. Ward is full, and in the next 11 hours anything can happen.

As it has made headlines in the past few days, our work is very taxing. Malaysians are more educated, and the demand is more as a consequent. Gone are the days when we tell them what to do and they just have to obey it.

Nowadays, lips service is getting equally important as the practical physical service. They demand explanations for this and that. The moment you are seeing the 30h patient you aren't yourself anymore. Unbelievable as it seems, this is only 2012. Imagine how is it going to look like in 2020?

Azri Fickry - 199x

Life is a growing young boy was fun. Now my job is to ensure your kids grow up and achieve his or her maximum potential.

My pay slip

Do not give me a call instantly after you have seen this. For the record, I don't earn what you can see in the cheque.

Now time for dinner. I have a few patients to review tonight. Adios...

till next time,
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Bold

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Just received 1 good news from wifey in Melaka. I was talking about getting a new BB phone and have even planned to take a few locum slots to fund the cost. Today when I was texting her, I knew something wasn't right. I don't know what it was, but she took longer than usual to reply.

So then I reached home at 7.30pm. I was again exchanging texts with her, and she had something to say. So, long story short, here it is.


May Allah bless you always wifey. You have been nothing but sweet. A gift that one couldn't ask for a better one.

Hopefully, in this rarely free weekend, I get to spend a meaningful time with her. I will be on call tomorrow, and right after rounds on Saturday morning, the destination set will be none other than Melaka.

Fingers crossed, hopefully her brother will be successful in finding a replacement of his locum. Otherwise she will be the obvious target to take the chair.

I've known this song for many years, but only a couple of days ago I finally got to know who the singer was. Enjoy this song wifey, and to you the readers. Sorry the video's a bit old school.

till next time,
assalamualaikum

Thugs

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I read with absolute disgust when I saw the news on twitter this morning. A group of gangsters allegedly assaulted the students in Dataran Merdeka.

You may not agree with their stance on the issue. However, you cannot resort to physical beatings when is not in agreement with you. You win an argument with facts, and this is 21st century. I suppose with intelligence, we can build the tallest tower in the world, but the primitive part of human being will still remain.You still want to win, by all means and at all costs so that you can stand tall.

If this group were ever to get caught, I would really feel sorry for them. The one who paid for these thugs would still be laughing, and you'd spend your time in the jail regretting the incident.

There is a tweet this morning 'We will only pay our PTPTN when Tajuddin Ramli pays his'. It does raise a point.

So, which side do you support?

till next time,
assalamualaikum

PTPTN

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Many have heard of the PTPTN issue. Many have commented. Some agree and some don't. The only objective way to find out is to conduct a survey.

In my opinion, free education should be offered, to the current generation. The loanees must payback whatever was given them. A restructuring of the debt is okay, but to write them off is a bit too drastic.

Maybe for the loanees, some restructuring for a payment according to grades should be initiated. For top scorers, make them pay less. For those who spend the money on new phones and entertainment, well, this is not your money people.

I'm pretty sure you have your own opinion too. Feel free to share them.

Us

till next time,
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A Doc's Life

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Tomorrow is my on call day, and every single doctor in Malaysia in the public sector feels it, the pre-call syndromme. The mood seems to hit the lowest the night before, and it matters not that you have worked for 10 or 20 years. Now that I am no longer in comfort zone, having 8-9 calls per month can be quite taxing.

Pre call, then post call comes afterwards. How do I feel then?

It has, honestly, not once but more that I need to constantly chew and drink to keep myself awake. In the recent years, the workload has tripled, if not doubled. Really, before I started this job, the registration recorded for 2008 was roughly 35k in Kulim Hospital. Came 2009, it shot up to 90k.

For a smaller hospital with less facilities, Banting too recorded 90k patients last year alone. The effects of rising cost of living are prominent. The workload has increased proportionately, and the admin people seem unable to understand the requests from the grassroot for more staff.

You can't help but to feel sorry for the late Dr Lee, the House Officer who passed away a few days ago. I don't believe he had 5 consecutive calls, back to back, as 1 of the reasons cited. In this new system, it is not possible. Whereas, I've already had my shares. In June 2010, I had 17 on calls including 5 calls back to back.

In Malaysia, the tradition is the juniors are not allowed to complain. The seniors will always be ' we went through worse'. This attitude helps a lot, doesn't it? Foolish. You went through worse, so don't even spend thousands for your kids, and please make them go through whatever you had before. Don't worry if your kids suffer, they will become a better person in the future. More resilient, tough and clever, 100% guaranteed.

This issue has to be dealt objectively. If previously you had 3 HOs in 1 department, if 1 created problem, the effect wouldn't be too damaging. Nowadays, if you have 3 problematic ones in a group of 10, the impact is more felt, though the ratio remains the same. With the increasing number of patients, you will want everybody to be functioning.

Nevertheless, the declining quality needs to be acknowledged. I reckon this issue needs more attention in comparison to others. How do you ensure the supervision is maximum when there are 10 junior doctors that he or she needs to look after?

The emphasis now has to shift into producing more specialist doctors, and retain them. Sponsor their MRCPs etc. Pay them with what they deserve.

I had the opportunity to pursue my 1st degree overseas. I can compare these 2 systems. It is unfair to judge, but I can confidently say we can do much better to improve the system. I witnessed this twice, that Junior Doctors went on strike for 2 days, i.e. never came for work for 2 days, after their demand for a pay rise was turned down.

In Malaysia, you would be deemed as weak and bad doctor if you did this. Can you see now the difference in the mentality?

till next time,
assalamualaikum

The Success

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Life is good at the moment. I am attending a Perinatal Annual Congress course in 1 World Hotel, meaning I can save some money from travelling till Sunday.

I met some friends whom I used to work with in Kulim. It feels good, rejuvinated somehow. I can now recall what comfort zone means. I was a Medical Officer for merely 10 months. Nevertheless, I know the place inside out. Now that I have moved on, I have to aim for the stars.

I can see the people around me with different level of success. We the human beings never feel satisfied, do we? Always the thirst is there for one to reach another milestone in life. I envy the people who finally get their chance to pursue Masters, or earning 5 digit salary monthly.

Allah is fair. One day Insyaallah my wishlist will come true. As for now, keep working hard and patience are the keys to success.

till next time,
assalamualaikum

The Journey

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

My wife is with me at Banting now. We'll be staying here for the night. Tomorrow is a public holiday but the job demands my presence in the ward in the next 36 hours, minimum.

I need to thank her for making the sacrifices to come here often. She was on night shift last night, and had a decent 4 hour sleep before starting her engine to reach here. I can't ask for more. In the past 4-5 weeks, she has made most of the travels, while I am stuck in this cowboy town. Everyday is a routine, and the thing that excites me is the countdown to see each other every week.

My boss has been pushing me to sit for the exams to become a medical specialist. No denying that it is an ultimate dream that I need to achieve eventually. The path is straightforward, but full of obstacles. One needs to be determined and focused all the time. I suppose with frequent travels, life couldn't be more difficult. I wake up at 6 am everyday, and reach home at 7 pm. With very little time to spare at night, the long working hours will take its toll long before you realise.

I have started a little. My plan is to be on full throttle when wifey finally gets her transfer, so I can dedicate more time towards achieving what is required.

Sometimes, I realise I make too many excuses. Lol, sometimes?

May Allah pave the easiest way for me to be up on par with the great ones, one day. Amin.

till next time,
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Square One

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In the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

It doesn't do anyone any good to be writing after a long hiatus. I suppose it will be very difficult to recapture the visitors that I once averaged 200 per day. Not a bad statistics, considering the fact that I hit the peak when I was a student.

So you ask where am I now. Hospital Banting is where I serve now. I am, thank God, still in Paediatrics. I have completed 1 full year in Paediatrics, and the ups and downs have done nothing spurred my interest into a greater height, Yeah right...

I am moving into 4th month of married life. Baby? No, no luck yet. Is luck alone enough?

My wife and I.

I would really like this blog to be up and alive again. I miss this big part of my life. Writing lights up the world. In order for you to excel, you need to read lots. However, you need somebody to write before you can read, don't you?

My wife has started blogging as well.

Hope P1 Wimax will not disappoint me in Banting. I miss their great service they provided me in Kulim previously.

If only everything could be pre-warned.

Till next time,
assalamualaikum