Emo, Distressed

assalamualaikum

in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

We finished celebrating Yah's(niece) birthday an hour ago. I am now in my room and I feel so lonely tonight. I do not know why.

Life hasn't changed much. Routine takes place everyday, but sometimes it gets very dull. I wake up to the same thing, work, work  and work. It takes 2 1/2 hours minimum everyday for TTDI-Banting-TTDI trip.

What I think is ideal is to have a free and meaningful weekend, where time can be allocated for family and friends. Ever since coming to Banting, I have worked than 50% of the weekends each month. Imagine having to work in 3 out of 4 weekends. Don't ever mention the normal working days.

There are things you will never understand. Here in Malaysia, we produce more than 4000 doctors per annum. Where do these people go after completing their housemanship? We seem not to have enough doctors wherever I go.

Selangor and Kuala Lumpur are 2 states that I find it difficult to fathom. They have the most number of house officers. Apparently it is their policy that all will be sent out of state upon completing housemanship, meaning they will be everywhere all over the country.

The scenario above will directly tell you there is abundance of doctors in the states non Klang Valley. That isn't the case it seems. Every state seems to be struggling with the number of doctors. Ironic, these states have a policy that many will be retained within their own respective states.

So, funny is it not when you wonder where these doctors are?

Go on talking that doctors need to render the best to the needy ones. Don't get us wrong. The majority of us are doing are this for our passion. Does this mean we need to sacrifice everything for your happiness, and leave us with none?

We are not void of feelings you see. We want to see our family and friends too.

One cannot help to wonder why teachers get the most attention in our country, when actually we are the ones working for 30 consecutive hours, sacrificing our sleep and weekend for the people? Do we get the pay that we deserve? No!

My bad, forgive me. We are doctors. We ought to be doing this for free. We are robots.

enough of emo stuff

till next time,
assalamualaikum