Isn't it.By right.

assalamualaikum

in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I am currently watching National Budget 2010 on RTM 1. They haven't mentioned yet any bonuses for the government staff members therefore I'll only wait for the summary on the newspaper tomorrow. Hehe..

I finally had a good sleep last night, though it lasted only for 4 hours. Alhamdulillah, I cherish that a lot. I believe I am on the right track to put the past behind, and ready to move on. Alhamdulillah again..

Sometimes, when things happen, we are only human beings that we tend to remember more of the bad things rather than good ones. Normal, is it not?

On another subject, I find this annoying and hmm, I don't know..these Malaysian doctors very more often than not use 'by right' and 'bla,bla,bla....isn't it'. Whatever they utter out, they will add up isn't it?

-They bla bla bla....isn't it
- you cannot do that, isn't it.
-bla,bla, bla isn't it.
-you don't know anything isn't it.
- by right you bla bla bla
- and by right by right by right

yeah, because they are seniors and they are so 'senior', you will become a yes man. Yes boss. Whatever they say is correct, and your job is to execute everything. You get no thank you for 99% of what you do, and for 0.0000005% that you might forget, you might get extended. Lol...

whatever.

till next time,
assalamualaikum.

Move on..

assalamualaikum

in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I find it rather easy to say 'Be strong', or 'Sabarlah' to those who are in troubles. When you go through it, sometimes you will feel like slapping them on the face for saying that. Not that it isn't true, but I suppose in this difficult time, the majority would prefer to have some time and space alone. Or to have some listeners who would listen to your stories, though you know they can never give you any solution.

I guess what I am saying is be careful with your words to your friends okay..

I was going through Youtube and found Janet Jackson's 1997 chart topper - You Don't Know What You've Got till It's Gone. Goodness me, how I know she(JJ) is so right. I realise that it is too late, and if only I could turn back the time, then I would do it. Many things we take for granted, and Allah knows best, in a split of a second they are gone. If you are lucky enough, sometimes they come back to you. In my case, I can only hope.



When you walk through a storm
Hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark
At the end of the storm
Is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark
Walk on through the wind
Walk on through the rain
Though your dreams be tossed and blown
Walk on walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone
You'll never walk alone
Walk on walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone

Being realistic, I have to move on with my life. Liverpool is losing, but their 'You'll Never Walk Alone' is always an inspiration.

I will come good, I promise.

till next time,
assalamualaikum

straight je naaa..

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I never knew people were following my life so close. So close that many have actually predicted the outcome of whatever thing they were following. Yeah, so they were right.

A number of them are going through what I am going through. I suppose long distance has taken its toll, and many have succumbed to separation. Allah knows best.

I am now back in Kulim. Ben was asking 'are you homesick'?. Lol! Everyone is when all that matters is not around. I am closer to 26 hence I know better how to cope with it, and how to defeat it.

there will be no youtube video posted here this time. hehe..

I think I have come to terms with whatever that has come to me recently. I know what I want is not necessarily the best for me, and what I hate is perhaps good for me.


216. Diwajibkan atas kamu berperang, padahal berperang itu adalah sesuatu yang kamu benci. Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.

This verse has never failed to escalate my empty soul. I sort of know what is the purpose of life, but I need to feel it. At the moment I can't, therefore I need guidance. I have lead myself astray. I have done what I shouldn't have.


“Katakanlah (wahai Muhammad): “Wahai hamba-hamba-Ku yang telah melampaui batas terhadap diri mereka sendiri (dengan perbuatan maksiat), janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah, kerana sesungguhnya Allah mengampunkan segala dosa; sesungguhnya Dialah jua yang Maha Pengampun, lagi Maha Mengasihani.” (Surah al-Zumar: 53)

Allah, I stand before You asking for guidance. I frequently seek for You when only when I'm in troubles, and I know this is not right.

I need to start studying.

till next time,
assalamualaikum

chin up

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I have recently started listening to the rock of 90's.



This song is not intended to anyone.

I love the part

Millionaire say
Got a big shot deal
And thrown it all away but
But I'm not too sure
How I'm supposed to feel
Or what I'm supposed to say
But I'm not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle every day
And I miss you love

Make room for the prey
'Cause I'm coming in
With what I wanna say but
It's gonna hurt
And I love the pain
A breeding ground for hate but...

I'm not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle everyday
Like the one that just past
In the crowds of all the people

Remember today
I've no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love

I love the way you love
But I hate the way
I'm supposed to love you back

It's just a fad
Part of the teenage angst brigade and
I'm not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle everyday
Like the one that just past
In the crowds of all the people

Remember today
I've no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love

Remember two days
I've no respect for you
And I miss you love
And I miss use love

I love the way you love
But I hate the way
I'm supposed to love you back

Hmm..sometimes life is like Semisonic's Closing time,every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end.or is it the opposite way? whatever..

till next time
assalamualaikum

A better option

assalamualaikum

in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

It was less than a month ago I came back home(KL). This time is partly for raya open houses, and more importantly a much needed break from the stress I am currently facing.

I am now@TTDI.

I look at my life again, since the age of 16, I have been away from family for academic reasons. First it was MRSM Pengkalan Chepa(good time), then KDU, IMU and New Zealand. Yes, yet again, I am 350km away from KL.

From KDU onwards, I have always been in a group where I am(therefore we are) the senior most Malay. We have no seniors to look up to. Time and time, a minority group of Malays will fall, but I have proven, time and time I have the capabilities to survive. I survived KDU. I survived IMU. I am proud(bukan riak) to be the only Malay to have graduated from Medical School in Auckland. Auckland's medical school at 2007 was ranked 2 no 18 worldwide.

Now I am in Kulim, being one of the 4 most senior HO's. I care not about the title. I only want to survive this 2 years. I have decided that I want to come back here to KL. This is home.

I've had enough of being away from KL. If I were to go for another stint somewhere else, let me come home for a year or 2. In worst case scenario, I'll just take a year off and survive on locum.
I miss this place.

I don't hate Kulim at all. Kulim is fine rapidly developing place. People are friendly,good food and beautiful waterfalls everywhere.

Even if KL is as bad as Perlis for e.g., KL is home. I am a true true true KL boy. I was born in Petaling Jaya, had my childhood both in Damansara Utama and TTDI.

I am not as depressed as psychiatric textbooks, but I am not 100% myself yet. I know I will come good.

till next time,
assalamualaikum

that I would be good

assalamualaikum

in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

there's little consolation to what has been fated, long before human was created. More to learn, although many lessons are learnt in hard ways.

I can be impatient at times, but I know hopefully I will come good.



Nothing's concluded, yet. 'Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart, and you'll never walk alone' I suppose?

I'm sure, in the future, there's more reason to smile when I look at the past. Only this impatience brings you down in the present.

Alanis' lyrics are outstanding that sometimes they help to comfort you. She's in her own league when it comes to lyrics.

Allah knows best.

till next time,
assalamualaikum

Putaran Roda

assalamualaikum

in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I have finally completed 6 days of fasting in Syawal. It feels good you know, it really does.

My life has been like a roller coaster lately. Perhaps Yuhana's facebook status is right,

'the higher u go, the harder u fall. but if it's worth it..i'll choose a crash landing anytime'

it is far from perfect. somehow it is not wrong. I have performed solat istikharah, and now I completely leave it to Allah to guide me to the best path, albeit painful.

Maybe the method was wrong, yes I admit it. Instead of leading to the correct way, I have lead you astray.

I mean not to stop you doing these activities. I know I promised you one last time, n I took it all away from you all in a sudden.

Let's manipulate Yuhana's status, undeniably a fall can be fatal. but who sets the rules that the higher u go you will fall? It can be ultimately satisying if you can reach the top right.

If you wish to speculate anything from what I've written above, please go ahead. This isn't easy to tell.

or perhaps, a serendipity in its own way?

till next time,
assalamualaikum

ramadhan kareem

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in the name of allah the most gracious the most merciful

in the spirit of ramadhan, i would like to urge the members of umno to stop attacking tuan guru nik aziz. He has replied with 'not to attack me based what u read in papers'.n how wrong more could you be if u r a big fan of utusan,right?

wherever u read it from, i hev repeatedly use this verse from quran that roughly says we need the analyse thoroughly every news so that we wont make mistakes and punish others undeservedly.

this is only day 2,therefore the chance is there for all of us to fully utilise this holy month.

till next time,
assalamualaikum

2 more days

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in the name of allah the most gracious the most merciful

2 more days to ramadhan,so selamat menyambut ramadhan semua.

i wish everyone the best for the coming ramadhan..

n the best is to keep reminding each n everyone of us...a good reminder of course

Till next time,
assalamualaikum

hypocrite

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in the name of allah the most gracious the most merciful

i would like to suggest the readers to have a read@the star yesterday.i think it sounds like a mat salleh who was pouring compliments on sg buloh hospital.

of course, many who prefer negative news will be selective in their comments.they think they will attract more fans by doing so.sigh...useless to argue with this group of ppl

My sisters are leaving very soon..1 is going to egypt,the other 1 for canada..this friday is going to be the first time the whole family will be together.to celebrate,there will a family photo session.n farewell party this sunday of course.

this friday is also going to be a special day for me.it's yuyu,s birthday..happy birthday yu!there is no need to say a lot of things, you know i only wish good things for u kan...=)

Im driving down to kl tomorrow right after work.these days, it's a rare occasion to get a break. While im on it, i hope there's nobody to destroy my good mood ok.

till next time,

Assalamualaikum

education

assalamualaikum

in the name of allah the most gracioius the most merciful

here i am today to express my support for dr hassan ali.

in muslim majority area, alcohol should not be sold legally.

Some have argued that the muslims should teach their kids not to consume alcohol. If only everything can be solved through teaching.

Abolish macc, n just educate the leaders to not accept or give bribery anymore.

abolish internal security act,n educate everyone not to commit any crimes.

abolish rules and regulations at swimming pools, n educate everyone to swim, including the infants.

there are reasons rules are made,n there are consequences when they are broken.

to those who oppose selling of alcohol in public, don't get emotional. Nobody's banning alcohol, we are just not supporting the idea of having it in muslim majority areas.

To the muslims who oppose the idea, or the so called liberalised malays, quran has 1400 years ago said alcohol has some benefits,but it brings more harms than good.

see, it is banned not because it's not good, but because the commyunity will go hay wire if it isn't controlled.

n simple, not everything can be solved through education.

Please,be more academic. We are civilised, aren't we?

till next time,
assalamualaikum

priceless

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

im mobile blogging again.

you see, some people, they think they are too smart that find it so hard to accept they have weaknesses. Many subjects, when they are a subjective subject, you are not wrong when you are neither right nor wrong.

Things, as you get older, should be taken more intellectually, rather than emotionally. I enjoy forums, heated discussions n brainstormings because these will not make u asleep.

Some people think they 'life' when they do clubbing. It is subjective, though i personally hate both clubbing and the people involved in it. Both will never qualify a 'life' for me. It is for those with hollow and empty minded individuals.

N also, going down on the streets like last weekend. It is a public place, for goodness sake. People are doing bussinesses there, therefore have some sympathy ok.

and at this moment, i wish somebody would take me anfield, or bekelah(pahang). It's a 7 layered natural waterfall, it takes merely 3 hours to reach the summit and you get to count the stars at night. It's so beautiful, subhanallah. Many of us fell asleep while counting, honestly. And moreover, we slept very close to the river bank!

So many things to be discussed in this very short time.

till next time,
Assalamualaikum

in the ward

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most

i'm currently in the obs n gynae ward.there's no pt to be clerked(yet),therefore i thought i should maximise the use of my 3g.

my life a year ago was completely different.i was a trainee intern back in the auckland,n now im an intern,n here i am in kulim rendering my service to this beloved country.

contrary to what most people believe,kulim is a rapidly developing place.it isnt that bad.it is close to highway,close to penang n perak n it takes only 4 hours to reach kuala lumpur.

still,nothing beats home aye?

i've given my promise to someone that i'll return to kl once housemanship is over.InsyaAllah,this promise will be honoured.

At this point of time,i just wanna go home n sleep.today is my last day tagging.a brand new life will start tomorrow.1st obs n gyn on call this saturday.

till next time,
assalamualaikum

3g

a'kum

in the name of Allah the most Gracious the Most Merciful

Im at the labour room.Obs n Gynae is boring.it is not my cup of tea,n i don't know how am i going to survive the next 4 months.raya lagi, birthday y*y*,n so many things..

Football is going mad don't u guys think?
Owen to man utd,tevez to city,adebayor to city..this is ridiculous..

ads pas seems to be losing support.or umno is good in using money.im not gonna get into ny argument.simple,because its a subjective matter.and what good does it make by having an unnecessary fight?right?

i need to go for prayer.

till next time,
assalamualaikum

Dengan Nafasmu

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Ungu, the rock band from Indonesia has never failed to entertain me. Their music and lyrics are close to perfection. I'm exaggerating of course, but truly they play fantastic music. Their love songs are addictive to girls, but songs like Andai KuTahu are widely accepted by the public. This is another masterpiece from Ungu.



Saat ku ucap kata taubat
Sebelum Kau memanggilku
Kembali padaMu
Menutup waktuku[full lyrics]

Style, Quality, Excellence

better than Dunhill!

till next time,
assamualaikum

at his best

assalamualaikum

in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

in the wake of UMNO's premature excitement over unity government, I prefer to look at a bigger picture of the reality.

as Husam Musa has said earlier today,

of course he is right,

“What is the point of having ‘unity talks’ and yet wanting to fight against us?” Husam told Malaysiakini in a telephone interview today.

“If Umno is sincere, the first thing they have to do is not contest against PAS (in Manek Urai). But I don’t believe Umno is ever sincere.

So do I.

I have always preferred someone charismatic as him to be our 7th Prime Minister, or Ir Nizar.

till next time,
assalamualaikum

Boredom

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

Many bad news have come to me lately. 1stly, TG Hadi Awang's idea of unity government. To be fair, he hasn't been given the chance to explain his ideas. The question is, when is he going to if, at all, explain? People are getting restless, and PAS as a whole is getting unnecessary sticks from their partners.

They should never have considered this idea in the 1st place.

Now UMNO is back at their best, manipulating all issues possible.

Also the talks of possible transfers leaving Anfield are seriously disturbing. I am very sincere when I say I loathe the transfer of Christiano Ronaldo to Real Madrid. I hate MU for sure, but his footballing skills and match winning ability never fail to mesmerize me.

Look at how Real Madrid plans to assemble their team. Raul-Ronaldo-Higuain-Kaka-Ronaldo-?Ribery-Diarra. Truly Galacticos eh?

Now, another topic.

Previously, I hardly hesitated to spend my money. Nowadays, I am earning my own, I think twice. lol! My parents have always said that. I suppose when you have started to reach the next level of your life, you will be where your parents are. I understand now.

I withdrew some money as I thought of getting my way out of boredom. It wasn't much, but I felt I needed to be away out of hospital for some time, hence I drove down to Seberang Jaya. I ended up only a rack, at Giant!

lol.that surely tickles ur funny bones, doesn't it?

I am on post call, and tiredness is killing me. I probably should get some sleep.

till next time,
assalamualaikum

Ingin Pulang

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

everyone's probably bored of waiting for an update here.

lol!

life's terribly boring at this moment. Family is far away, KL is no less than 4 hours and gf is nowhere to be seen here in Kulim. what more could you ask for, eh?

perhaps, if you listen to a song like Ingin Pulang by Sheila o 7, that would take some of your stress away. No it would not! I'm yearning to go home..I haven't even seen the face of my latest nephew, let alone hear him cry. His name is Ashraf Fickry. Everyone in the family seems to have a cool name, mine is the obvious - Azri Fikry @ Fickry. I know I know..it is unique. lol!

This upcoming PAS General Assembly is interesting more than usual. I'm throwing my support for Husam Musa, one of my preferred candidates to even be the Prime Minister of Malaysia, along with Ir Nizar.

These 2 men look smart and intelligent, the right criteria that I don't have and the criteria that Malaysians need.

I can be more analytical if I want to, but I am sleepy and am on call tomorrow. My body is super tired due to lack of sleep for the past 3 days.

To the newcomers to Malaysian Health System, enjoy your work here. It is nothing like UK, Australia or NZ. Nothing at all. You will notice one day there's no place like home, and to render your excellent brain service to your people is absolutely satisfying.

At the end of the day, 'thank you' will enlighten you. You can tell everyone later that you had a good at work today.

lol! Still, when you are tired, go and get some sleep ok!!

till next time
assalamualaikum

Ok!

assalamualaikum

in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

I was going to go for a movie tonight. However the available time was 9.15pm, so we thought it would not the best thing to do. I personally was not keen, but after 1 little brainstorming, I came to realise that life is not about work, work and word.

Maybe in the near future, if I feel like going out, I'll just follow what my heart says.

I have missed so many things since started work here. I have missed friends' wedding, lost touch with close friends and slight loss of interest in watching football matches.


Now with H1N1 virus, the government has given commands to the public to press the panic button. It's the same, people have started panicking already. One thing many Malaysians do not realise is Malaysia has a good reputation in handling endemic.

Many hospitals have already started preparing for Influenza outbreak. Even in my small Kulim Hospital, Influenza seminar was held 3 weeks ago. Impressive, isn't it?

Still whatever is done is deemed a doom when H1N1 hits you. Right?

I need to make a call.

Catch with you guys again!

till next time,
assalamualaikum

My regret

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in the name of Allah the Most Gracious the Most Merciful

for most Kedahans, thursday is the most anticipated day every week. Unfortunately, it means nothing for me. As a House Officer, it is a MUST to work everyday. Perhaps as a compensation, working hours are cut half which means you start at 8am and finishes at 12 noon.

Sometimes the more I work, the more I know that I don't know.


If only ample time is given daily so that we can revise some stuff everyday. Or maybe, I should have taken things more seriously during my student days.

As far as I have been told, 2 things
a) Every house officer is going through the same thing
b) Every senior has gone through what we are going through.

and as far as I realise, these statements are not beneficial to everyone.


I am enjoying work. I enjoy talking to people, helping them whatever necessary and these are why I love my job. Of course I feel bad to be scolded so constantly, and I don't want it to happen everyday. I need the drive to study, study and study. I am getting older and I know what is best for me.

Everything is ruined when I go back home, get my shower and dinner done, and the next I realise is my alarm clock is making noise.

More pics to come, I promise. I only upload pics in which I look relatively better than the other.

Come on, admit it. Everyone does that, don't they?

till next time alright?

assalamualaikum